hi

2011-02-20T08:03:00.000-08:00

Mixed Feelings...

Hiaz....

Stop troubling me anymore i hate it go away

Go away far away ... i never wan to see u again

Back!

2010-06-29T09:19:00.000-07:00

Back to Blogging(:

It is long since I blog(:

Have been really busy these days
Last Year of my Poly days and it is time to pull up my socks and really do some real work(:

*
Love the days we were together (:

**

2009-09-22T08:35:00.000-07:00

The one word that i would like to tell u NOW is that I AM REALLY SORRY
How i wish the time would go back to where it was
Never pass till end
Hearts broken, Tears shed but time will never be back
Time never stops for any min
Cruel till nothing you can utter about

So many feeling that i want to express but tonight is a night that make everything so hard

2009-09-14T07:42:00.000-07:00

Back to blogging....

Have been a busy month for the last month and continuing to be so busy for this coming month...
BUT TODAY i am HAPPY
BEC..
....
.......
i saw the other side of someone which is so cute and funny
hehe!!!

AND

PLUS

i saw ERNEST
he is so cute i promise
haha in love wif him (dun be jealous)

AND my results for BSC have really brighten my day today
THANK YOU to my supervisors MR TAN
i really thank you for all the teachings that you have given
and the never ending forgiveness that you have given
really thank you

Although all these but today Pei Shan is tired
have been working Comex Show for the past 2 days and attending frenz birthday party
but i really enjoyed myself in the birthday party
i saw friendship which i apperciated most and all the small talks we have!!!
BUT Pei Shan is WEARING OFF
AND toml still have to continue to work !!!

TIRED IS THE ONLY WORD THAT CAN DESCITE ME NOW !!!

oops i forget to go for ballroom practise again (2 WEEKS!!!)
better get back to where i am from
MY DREAM

*
long way since we started
till can barely remember how we started
enjoyed every single little things that was done
apperciated everything that was seen
never ending happiness brought
never ending love that was showered
never ending blessing that was given
everything so perfect
till i have no excuse to run...
**

2009-08-13T10:51:00.000-07:00

This are the pictures I took for dance performance for lunch time concert

2009-08-06T06:07:00.000-07:00

YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Change a new blog skin...

New Skin new life to my blog
welcome my readers
haha(:

Haven been blogging for long...
This fews week has been quite a packed week
Although now i did not really had many activities to attend
But
Just by the attachment
It is enough to fill up all my time

REPORTS,PROJECT,DATA PROCESSING,DATA ANALYSIS,MYSTERY SHOPPING.......

Today has been a fun day although there was many things to be done but my team had fun too !!!

D quality student = Distinction quality Student

said by Mr Wong

haha !!!

BUT the GOOD NEWS is next week is our last week of full time attachment
And that is REALLY GREAT
so this week must really give my v best
JIA YOU LOL FOR EVERYBODY!!!!

BESIDES all my work, i still went out with my dear!!!!
THANKS TO HIM WHO ALWAYS HELP ME IN MY MS AND CARRY ALL THE HEAVY THINGS THAT I BUY (:
THANKS DEAR(:

NEVER HAD A DAY WITHOUT HIM!!!!!
so BLESSED

below are some of the pictures we took!!!!

ME and MY DEAR(:

BAO BEI

Baby

DEAR(:

BABY(:

Haven been meeting out wif my friends for long
should catch up wif them one day
Yea going out wif my friends on tues after a long time
haha!!! (:

FRIday,Sat and Sun have to work

STRESS!!!!

happiness will never fade till the day you go
life goes on till the day you leave
heart never stop beating till your pressence is gone
and time never stop when you always with me!!!

2009-07-23T10:20:00.000-07:00

At last i can really really take a break
REALLY REALLY AT LAST!!!!!!!
.
..
...
....
.....

YEAH!!!my performance just ended on wednesday
it was a really scary and exciting one
the thoughts of being able to stand on the stage to perform never went through my mind for long
i use to had stage fright and i never would wan to be the one up on the stage
but tis time i did
although it was not really my best due to the missing steps but it was really a good experience
i can really say i enjoy myself on stage v much
BEC tis is really a rare chance
suddenly i have the urge to practise so hard that i can go for dance competition
hope tis motivation will not fade away

after a long time in sports playing netball and other sport games in the end i still end up wif my childhood dream of dancing...
i was really glad that i joined dance in my poly life and really thx to my friend who has brought me to learn dance...

although my parents were unable to attend my first performance but they really gave me lots of moral support
which it really apperciated

but beside all tis i have a impt person to thx beside my family members
he has always being there beside me when i needed him
he motivate me to go on
waited for me for hrs just to send me home safetly although it is can be quite late at times
he always ensure that i am not hungry
always provide me with a comfortable shoulders for me to lie on when i am tired
and so much more...
dear really thanks for all that you have done for me
it is really apperciated
REALLY THX (:

And not forgetting my beloved friends and team mates who have actually come down to view my v first performance
hope u are enjoy it
and really thanks for the effort
love u all lotsssssssssssssss.....................(:

NOW at last i can have some time for myself
and most importantly time for me to have my beauty sleep
shopping...
dating...
working....
(:
(:
(:

"6 more years and we will be there"
"pressence peace my heart"
"but missing can be a tear my body"

2009-07-16T08:29:00.000-07:00

if only I could surpass my anger all this will not happen
if thing could come again i hope that i will not repeat it again
if there is only one word i can say
the word i wish to say most to you is "I AM SORRY"

Have been busy wif attachment
there are so much thing to do in attachment that whenever i reach home i would always reach out for my bed first
so busy wif all my client project and internal ones
now one more additional project to run
and worse i am in charge of it
hope everything will go will

Besides attachment i am spent large amount of time dancing
it is really tiring as now we have more practise compared to before as the performance is coming
gosh mine is next wednesday!!!!!!!!!!!
i am really v worried and scared that i am unable to put up my best performance
really hope that everything will go well

Now for this week besides all the above activites
I have decided to work
And i found a Marketing Research work which has good pay and easy job
however it can be quite stressful at time if the performance is not there
hope i can get through the trial with my bf (:
Jia You (:

Now due to all these activities
i have really no time for other things like going out wif my good frenz
Really hope that after all this end we can meet up (:
Yeah meeting wan QING tis sunday (:

"your pressence is a signal of security
security is loss when fear arises
the loss of your sight makes me empty and loss"

2009-06-11T20:08:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 6 month anniversary (:

tis is the most memorable anniversay i ever had
thx(:
at last i went sweesens to eat(:
tis feeling is so different from serving
it is always good to be a customer and not a service provider(:
we ate FISH AND CHIPS AND CHICKEN IN A JACKET
AND WE HAD ICE CREAM ( STICKY CHEWY CHOC AND BANANA SPLIT)
it is damn nice
had a nice experience in it
and i love there sofa seat
gosh it is so comfortable
nxt time we should go and eat there again

den we became deliveray man and women for my bro
brought mac for him
than we went in to see the IT show
haha it had been long since i went there as a customer
the feeling is just so different
but is so fun to squeeze with the people
haha (:
but so glad tat tis time i am coming with my dear(:

after tat we went to suntec to shop and i saw tis v cool thing
it is like a car and it is some sort of 3D thing
so cool haha
than me and my dear took some pics
yay !!!!!!!!!!!!!1
at last after a long time

den went to the fountain which was super romantic (:
i love the scence and the songs
it just feel so relax to be there and i am even happier bec i am with my dear (:
yesterday i really had a great time with him

AND LASTLY WE ATE MEE PORK

haha (:

i so love my grass jelly

hope everything will remain till end

Love you(:

A promise is a promise
and i am hopeing tat time faster (:

tis are the pic we took yesterday(:

2009-06-07T09:13:00.000-07:00

BACK TO BLOG....

one week of hol have passed
and one last week before the tourte will start
feeling super sian
hate to be in school for so looooooooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnng gosh (9-5.30)

but smth to be happy abt is tat
i brought my third dancing shoes
but it is not cheap at all
haha :)
but suddenly after buying it i have the urge to practise harder so tat i will excel in dance...
i wan to go for competition especially when the seniors actually dance for us to see
is really terrific
i wan to be a all rounder

i really hope tat i can enter local university and complete my studies(GOAL)
i wan to be a successful person in the future YAY!!!!(MY FUTURE GOAL) !!!!!!!!

2nd JUNE :)
WAS MY DEAR BITHDAY:)
plan a surprise party for him
and it turn out to be a successful one
really had to thanks these people :
lynn
pau
jerome
asshika
junfeng
wei xiong
nat
nad
joe
me:)
tat had make this part a successful one thx:)
glad tat everything went smoothly tat even HIM himself didn even know
haha :)
but everything was so worth it when i see the smile on him:)
had sushi buffet at last with pau,nad, lynn and dear
(sorry wan qing for not able to eat yum cha buffet with u really so sorry)
we had a great time there :)
HOPE TAT U WILL HAVE A MEMORABLE 19th BIRTHDAY

'times with u will nv be forgetten
smile on me will nv be taken away
bec you are the angel tat never leave me'

2009-05-31T08:29:00.000-07:00

argh felt so unhappy with myself nw
i am seriously getting fatter and fatter
gosh i must really do smth abt it before it turn out to be CHICKEN DRUMSTICK
haha
hate it
gosh
and my face also started to have pimple again
gosh how i wish it disappear and nv come back
haiz ...

wow at last i went for ballroom practise after skipping for 2 lesson
felt a little lost at first but pick up quite fast
but the CONDITIONING- known as stretching is tortureous
we had to do right, left and front split
is perfect split
!!!!!!!!!
luckily i was taught beforeor else tis will be the last time i go for practise
haha!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but had fun during practise and i am so inspired to go for competition after watching the dance move by my seniors
super damn nice i promise

`loving the feeling with you around`

2009-05-14T08:43:00.000-07:00

i really hate doing all tis module
it is so irratating
how i wish it will all end soon

so tired of school...

thx to asshika, nat, nad ,lynn, jun feng, kendra
i was make a post tat was out of no where...
really THANKS TO YOU GUYS

went to visit my grandma today at WOODLANDS
it has been long since i saw her
so glad to see her
i love to eat the food she cooks
I PROMISE THAT AFTER U EAT THE FOOD U WOULD WISH FOR A SECOND SERVING, THRID, FOURTH...
but she seems to look older and weaker
her leg has gave way
whenever i see her i have tis feeling that i cannot describe
she is the grandma that i treasure most and i would never ever wish to lose her

SUDDENLY I AM SO AFRAID TO BE OLD..
i hope that i would be able to remain young but i know it would nv happens

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never knew it would turn out tis way
courage have become a sadness
this feeling that cannot be expressed and describe
waiting for time to time to pass
but when it pass the arrival would never be the one i am waiting for

2009-05-09T18:44:00.000-07:00

I am sick of going to:
-school
-attending lesson
-having to bring my laptop to school
-doing all the project
-working

I am feeling so tired,if time could pass faster, maybe i would feel better.

I REALLY WAN TO BE ON DIET
I feel so fat especially my leg
i hate to look ugly wearing all those clothes.
i hate to see the eyes of other ppl

i hate all this
i really hate it
i dont wan tis anymore
i wan to be on DIET
AND IT MUST BE A REAL SUCCESS

time please pass faster
faster
~so missing you~
never knew how much i would miss
till u leave
hoping every day tat the day would come

2009-04-22T05:53:00.000-07:00

This feeling is getting nearer as days pass
Clearer as steps are taken
Never knew but just came
--------------------------------------------

Gosh school is going to start NEXT WEEK
-SO FAST-

SIAN... gt classical first ...
and every week ...2 ICA

I WAN TO GO CYCLING WITH THE 2 LWQ..
TELL ME WHEN U HAVE LEAVE KK

2009-04-18T07:54:00.000-07:00

it has been long since i last blog

i am back !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it has been really tiring tis few weeks
not the heart but the body

but i really enjoyed myself

the outing with both Qing was one of the most enjoyable one
we went cycling at last
it was a great experience being back there again
i am happy again nt reminded of anything again
we had steamboat after our tiring session
and the fun part was the both Qing tat compete with the arcade games
it wad really a tough match
although i did nt play but i enjoyed watching them

as for yesterday it was the last day of orientation
i had really great fun wif my class and the ogl
although my class was small but i really enjoyed myself with them
looking at them bonding together is one of the happiness that is really hard to get by (one time experience)
u will never feel wat a leader feel if u are not a leader urself
hope to see them around soon
and i want to join the next yr orientation again (:

as for today
tis morining, i found my room filled with a lot of food
and guess wad none is brought by me
thx to all my nice friends who brought me lots and lots of food
and esp someone who actuaally come all the way to my hse and waited for 3 hrs plus to actually supply me wif food
really thanks to u (:

as wad i only know is
TODAY IS REALLY V HOT

*distance is the way to know the feel of the person

I am Yours always
You will be my everything (:

2009-03-17T20:57:00.000-07:00

Glad that results had improved (:
Hope that next sem would be better(:

Yesterday went out Wei Qing
we had a small chat
from this small chat i have found out that actually i have change a lot
maybe i should say change for the better
if in the past the words that other ppl say would really affect me a lot
but when yesterday he told me what his frenz say
i am totally nt affected
not sad or anything
i think this is really a good change
i hate to be affected by people
especially when those ppl i do not even know
and i have to change bec of their remarks
i hate to be that way
but now i can confidently say that i am not going to be affected by anyone anymore (:

hope that u will still be frenz wif him
bec good frenz are hard to get (:

2009-02-26T07:22:00.001-08:00

What kind of bf is perfect for you? Your Result: The caring and sweet one. You are nice to him, so he returns the favor. He brings you flowers on dates, he gives you a get well card when you are sick. Just make sure you return the favor!
The romantic one
The Jokester
The bad boy
What kind of bf is perfect for you? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

2009-02-23T06:07:00.000-08:00

The feeling is so good to see my name in so many people's blog
This always shows that you are still remembered

It is sad to be not known
but is more sad not be remembered
BUT is the most sadden to be forgotten

Therefore thanks anyone that you wish to thanks today
Bec u nv know that tis may be a turn over for the person.

there is always many toml
but hw many toml are sure u have?

I really wan to thanks all my classmates from BJ
Thanks for all those people who have guided me through my exams
and always showering me wif endless concern
Although we may not to be together
but i wish we will still in contact
we will still remain as happy as we were when we are in this class
tis memories would nv be forgetten (:
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went wif nat, lynn and kendra for a briefing that only lasted for 15 mins
ONLY 15 MINS
travelling almost half and hour to school
for only 15 minutes of briefing

and guess wat me,lynn,nat and wei qing went to arcade to play
really had a fun time there
but too bad they had limited games there
all else we would play till dawn and still nt done
really had a fun time wif them
how i wish all these friendship would last till end

Thanks for all the things that u have done for me
i will treat every single bit of these love u have for me seriously
and i promise i will be serious to this realtionship
I really wan to thank you for ur endless understanding and tolerance u have for me when i am willful
and always wanting to change to become my perfect bf
i am really gald for all the effort u have put in
Thanks you for everything (:

2009-02-16T07:20:00.000-08:00

falling in to be never saved
closer to to fall to be never seen
deeper to be the right one
losing the be there
truth to be known but never felt
things to felt but never feel

how i wish friday will arrive sooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn..............

yea nw can go on internet again ...

but hope it will nt be a disaster

2009-02-04T02:29:00.000-08:00

Happy Belated Birthday Aashika

12 more days to exams !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

how i wish all this will end
it is really a toture
especially PRINCIPLES OF MARKETING
gosh what a module to study
hope i nv see u again
NEVER ....

FOLLOW UR HEART
FIND UR WAY
AND I WILL BE THERE WAITING FOR U (:
NEVER CHANGE
NO MATTER WAT HAPPEN IN THE FUTURE
I WILL CHERISH WADEVER WE HAVE NW
HOPING WE WALK TILL THE END TOGETHER (:

2009-01-21T08:36:00.000-08:00

4 more weeks to exams
2 more project to go
1 more test to be done

hw i wish all these will end !!!!!!!!!!!
NOW!!!!!!!!!
I CANT STAND IT ANYMORE !!!!!!!!!

gosh tis is the most toturous part of my life
AND
also the most beautiful part of my life

i have many frenz tat care for me
i have good classmates tat are nice
i have a bf tat show nv ending love
i have parents tat always show conern to me
i have ......
so many things tat others may nt enjoy

i think i am the most fortunate gal in the world (:
i am so glad to have them in my life
hw i wish all these will remain unchange

Thanks you for the love u have given me
I am so glad to have u in my life
And this time I am not going to let go
I promise

2009-01-12T02:48:00.000-08:00

this is wat i ate for lunch

disaster

1. chicken cutler with fries and spaghetti
2. tom yam ban mian
3. almond longan

i never ate like so much in one meal
gosh gain a lot of calories ..........
must go on diet le
hahaha(:

2009-01-05T07:27:00.000-08:00

sian so many project to go
-marketing
-econs
-writing
-interent

and many more exams and test coming up
feeling so sian
hw i wish all tis would faster end
bec i am really tired of it

maybe we are really nt competitible enough ba
i really think tat i am really a v v v v bad gal
i dunno wad to do to be best for both of us ba
i really dun know
i am really sorry to make u so sad
i am really so sorry
i can see tat loving me seem to be a pain to u
it have bring more sadness den happiness
maybe at first i should nt have accepted maybe all tis would be alright
it feel tat it is all my fault
i am so selfish
betting and thinking tat ur love will cause me to love u
i am really been so selfish
and thinking of holding u bec u r a v v v v nice guy
i am so selfish
i know tat i shld nt do tat
but in the end i did it
i am really so sorry
maybe i am jux like a free bird
tat cannot be control and kept

2009-01-01T14:15:00.000-08:00

AT LAST IT IS 2009
Happy NEW Year to everyone (:
went sentosa to countdown
although at first it feels like to be cheated
however later everything was jux so worth it

went to dance wif my frenz
really enjoy myself v much
nice experience
and knew

although i know that u did nt know anything
but u were there whenever i needed u
sorry to make u feel in a wired position
but from tis experience i knew tat u really really care for me
i am really touch by everything you have done
really thanks for everything (:
thx for been there when i needed ur shoulder
and thx for protecting me and allowing me to have peace when i needed it
there is so many sorry and thx tat i wanted to say to u ...
REALLY THX (:
AND SORRY

2008-12-27T07:27:00.000-08:00

wow wasted my hol all on working
time seem to pass so fast
it nt till i catch a breath when hol is over

now it is time for me to catch up in my studies
and really spend all my time in it
hw i wish all these will pass quickly
bec i wan to go out and play
and i am sick to study anymore

* it feels good to know tat you care
it feel good to know you love me
no matter wat happen belief tat we will pull through
bec i trust tat with you nth is impossible
a world wif u make me have no worries and sadness
with you there is only happiness
i belief our love will last till end
bec my love for you cannot be measured using anything
so we will pull through everything and meet till end
love ya(:

2008-12-14T17:52:00.000-08:00

should update my blog nw...

yeah hol
at last i can catch a breath
it is long since i long for a long hol
so that i can re charge myself
there is a lot of things that i have to catch up
especially in my studies
i am so worried that my studies would drop
tis is the last thing tat i do nt wish to see in the end

for the sem i thinking i have been slacking a lot
everthing jux happen so fast
and i am tired
so i hope tat after tis hol i would be alright
and be ready for tis last battle
and there is no LOSE in my dictionary

everybody seem to be gg away for hol
except for me still staying in Singapore
but is okay i still have frenz around and you to accompany me (:

those gg for hol rememeber to buy presents back ar
haha(:

i am sorry if my words have hurt u
i am sorry
but i really appericate the nice things tat u have done for u
and the one side like nw
i promise i will try my best to maintain all these
i promise

2008-12-07T09:31:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday Wan Qing (:

hope u enjoy ur day (:
had nice small chat wif u
hope u will remain happy always k (:
dun think too much le kk(:

wow cant wait for 2 yrs to pass
haha
guess wat we went to sign tis saving bank account thing
wow cant imagine man we will get like 4500 by end of 2 yrs
gosh is like a lot man
an i really feel tat the guy is so damn funny la
nt missing any mins of laughter
he is really such a entertainer man
is good to be like tat
at least ppl will nt be bored like u

wan qing i will help u keep a look out of tis kind of guys k
haha (:

2008-11-25T05:19:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NAT (:

I AM REALLY GONING ON A DIET
AND THIS TIME IT Is REALLY NOT GONNA FAIL
I WANNA TO BE THIN BEFORE I START TO WORK

I DUN WAN TO LOOK FAT

tis is the last day i am really gg to eat a lot
from toml onwards i will eat only fruits
yeah must perserve

now so tired after the outing wif nat, jun feng and lynn
it was really an enjoyable one (:

die now feeling so tired and sick
i dun wan to take re test
i wish my body can perserve until thrus den sick ba
please BODY !!!!
if u wan me to be sick please let me sick after thrus when i finish my paper k
haha

2008-11-23T07:45:00.000-08:00

"take my hand
take a breath, hold me close and take one step
keep your eyes lots on mine and let your music be your guide"

2008-11-23T06:03:00.000-08:00

i hate ppl who think tat they have looks means everybody shld like them or love them
please be more mature

it also does not means that only pretty gals or guys can get true hapiness
true happiness does not all depends on looks
or maybe those nice looking ones shld really ponder if there past bf or gf is who they really love or like

therefore when the nxt time u see a couple which u think they dismatch..
it does not mean tat they would nt get true happiness
maybe they would be more bliss den wat u can actually think

so dun be sad if u meet the wrong guy nw bec they may just belong the group of jerks that do not deserve to be love

so stay happy gal k(:

i will nt be superficial anymore (:

2008-11-22T23:18:00.001-08:00

wow feeling so sick ...
i hate to be sick
i hate the feeling to be sick
it is really so terrible..
gosh ..

all the virus please go out of my body NOW !!!!!!
suddenly i just feel like a water tank
keep drinking , drinking and drinking water

and there is so many things that i cannot do:
- studying
- go out
- run
- etc

i wan to be healthy again ..
i dun wan to pon schl
i wan to sit for the test

the only advantage to be sick is that i can see the real frenz who really concern me ...thanks

*thanks for ur concern and allowing me to feel important (:
i will keep u in my heart (:
thx(:

2008-11-21T22:48:00.000-08:00

時間過了　走了　愛情面臨選擇
妳冷了　倦了　我哭了
有些愛只給到這真的痛了
怎麼了　妳累了　說好的　幸福呢
我懂得　不說了　愛淡了　夢遠了
妳不等了　說好的　幸福呢
我錯了　淚乾了　放手了　後悔了

tAG:
nat : i where gt spell ur name wrongly can !!!
PIG: Si Lai Wei Qing my english is nt bad can is only when i tok to u den become bad lol

2008-11-16T08:06:00.000-08:00

thx for toking to me k :)
good frenz....:)
jia you ba..

although this relationship has brought me more pain and tears
but i nv had ever regret knowing u
it allow me to know thing tat i do nt use to think of
and it has allow me to grow stronger

thanks:)
now no pain no tears anymore

still a happy gal!!!!!!

life is jux so unpredictable
u nv know wat is gonna happen nxt
so cherish wat u have
and do not always stay in the past
look forward there are more things tat u can do
or find
so therefore look forward
dun turn back
and u will feel tat ur life is nt a waste

so dead have nt even study for my stats ICA
have not even do acc tut for toml
i am nt gonna slp today le
haiz...

2008-11-13T08:12:00.000-08:00

At last all this toutre is coming to an end
and soon it will come again
(nxt week stat ICA and internet software presentation)

sorry for wat i have done to u nw or u in past
but i wanna say tat i really did nt mean to do tat
i jux wanted it to remain as wat we r nw
so let it remain tis way
but really wanna to say so sorry abt it
it will fade as time pass

2008-11-09T06:18:00.001-08:00

wow next week is gonna be a busy week !!!!!!!!!!!!

marketing project due
and
WRITING ICA !!!!!!!!!!

GOSH!!!!!!!!!!!!

我的连续剧
爱的连续剧
世界的喜怒哀乐停也不停
爱是种美丽或者是幻影
未来是不是一个问题
我的连续剧她的连续剧我们要多少年后才肯相遇我有些灰心
也还要努力看看爱情
它会在哪里

*derrick song is highly recommended

2008-11-06T04:34:00.000-08:00

I LOVE EDWARD CULLEN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

life is filled with so many regrets
not bec of this ,this will nt happen
nt bec of this , things will nv turn out this way
not bec of this, you will not lose him

nt bec of this....

so many of regrets tat can happen
is nt y or hw it happen but is hw u solve it tat matters

how would i wish all these is real
loving u will nv be a regret

2008-11-01T07:45:00.001-07:00

i wanna to change haistyle !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and i did research
and i feel that
the different hairstyle that is available is so limited

is either straight ,curl or short

gosh !!!!

我看书看到你了
开始怀疑我怎么了
我爱你爱到盲了
天知道我又怎么了
不舍得舍不得都分手了
舍不得不舍得散了
爱是你的我是我的完了
原来我只是突然累了
原来我不说了
原来我撑着撑到麻了
原来我不爱了

2008-10-31T06:22:00.000-07:00

太多愛不明不白
我還在　分手的那一天原地徘徊
太多事不明不白
不明白　怎麼笑著走出來

不要對我再說愛
你回來　可是過去再也回不來
不要對我再說愛
我還在　鞦韆上搖擺

太多人不明不白
我不想　重新開始　還想著原來
太多人不必等待
我不能　給你確定的未來

不要對我再說愛
我坦白　一直忘不了原來
不要對我再說愛
我害怕　我們再受到傷害

不要對我再說愛
你回來　可是過去回不來
不要對我再說愛就讓我
一個人靜靜搖擺

一段愛從不明白　到明白
我的眼淚才慢慢流出來

2008-10-29T09:09:00.000-07:00

Good things are worth to wait

Regrets are used to be laugh for ur stuipdity

But no matter wat

look forward nv turn back

live happily even if u r nt

bec days would still pass

nth will change for ur sadness

NOTHING

PATIENTLY WAIT FOR UR TURN AND IT WILL COME

AND WHEN IT COME DONT MISS IT

DONT LEAVE ANYMORE REGRETS

2008-10-27T08:11:00.000-07:00

i think this would really be the final goodbye to u

goodbye to all the memories that we all use to have
goodbye to happiness we use to enjoy
goodybye to the things we all use to do
goodbye to things that have let us down
goodbye to the things that we use to cherish
goddbye to the accompany that we all use to have for each other
goodbye to things that have always hung us together

goody to everything
goodbye to u

i have always thought that i have nt given up on you
but today i notice that there is no need for u to be there anymore
i have learn to put u down and nt be affect by u
no matter wat i still hope that u will remain happy always
and i wan to thank you for everything that u have given to me
i will nv forget the days
thanks

2008-10-26T08:38:00.000-07:00

okay i shall uodate my blog
since the someone say my blog is rotting

yeah today went swimming :)
gosh i am so tanned nw
i wanna to be white nt tanned
i think i shld put more sun block the nxt time i swim

den after swimming eat and eat and eat

i wanna to study uni suddenly
today went on web and saw on a forum that commented that 1 out of the 4 ppl in Singapore are actually graduates
in other words there are more and more graduates in Singapore and which goes to mean that uni cert and below cert are useless..
i wanna to study as high as possible
yeah my goal UNIVERSITY AND ABOVE :)

qing lets work hard together den we can study the same uni :)

if everything was jux as it was suppose to be in the situation
maybe we will nt be wat we r nw
thanks for everything

2008-10-05T23:39:00.000-07:00

一直等　一個人　等了很久
這一場　獨角戲　是很寂寞
春夏秋冬　我的窗口　只有風經過

愛很深　有多深　我也不懂
妳走後　我的心　變的脆弱
聽一首歌　也覺得痛　但我誰也沒有說

右邊的座位　右邊的枕頭
都已經空了那麼久
為妳守候　那是因為　我已經看透

沒有妳的愛　這個我只是一半
不哭了　不笑了
為誰努力我也不明白
沒有人能取代　一個圓的另一半
我固執　的等待
等風再把妳帶回來

2008-10-03T06:00:00.000-07:00

wow i am so tired after working at sweesens during the public hol
it feels like i am going to tear apart anytime
it is seriously so tiring

obviously after tat my body could nt take it
and i fell ill

i hate the feeling of being sick
hate the smell of medicine
hate the feeling of unable to sleep well
hate the feeling of the bad headache

and worse tat i was unable to work today
hope the managers would nt be angry
wish they would nt mistaken tat i am lying ba
i am really sick
everything jux came in just in time
actually nt wanting to go to work
after tat decided to go to work
but unfortunately fell sick
so unable to go to work

2008-09-29T09:13:00.000-07:00

I AM REALLY GLAD TO HAVE WAN QING AS MY FRIENDS
THX FOR ACCOMPANYING ME WHEN I AM DOWN
I AM OKAY NW REALLY THX

WOW WORK IS SO TIRING
12-11 FOR 2 DAYS STAIGHT
AND 2 TWO MORE COMING ALONG
LUCKILY I HAVE A GROUP OF GD AND FUNNY WORKING MATES TO WORK WIF
AT LEAST I AM NT SO BORED
AND I CAN FEEL HAPPY WORKING THERE

17 MO5RE DAYS TO SCHOOL RE OPEN
SIAN ...

hw i wish we can be like the past
i miss the days

2008-09-22T06:16:00.000-07:00

everything nw seems to be fine ..
exams results was up to my expectations ..
have income to live happily
had frenz accompany when i am happy and down
had supportive parents

i think i am v forunate to have things tat many do nt have or cannot even enjoy

i am so blessed

thank you for everything that i have nw

i hope everything will still remain like tat in the many years to come (:

i am really happy wif my life nw (:

no matter if we are together or nt
i will still be happy
there is nth tat i am hoping nw
but only hoping tat we still can be frenz
and hoping this friendship will nv ends

2008-09-14T22:35:00.000-07:00

I AM SO WORRIED AND SCARED FOR THE RESULTS TAT IS GG TO BE RELEASED AT 12 TONIGHT

DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the counted and the best i could get is 3.6
and the worse to worse id 2.6

gosh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-09-07T21:19:00.000-07:00

HAPPY GAL !!!!!! :)

EAT,
SLEEP,
PLAY,
WORK,
SHOPPING!!!!

this is wat i have always been doing for the few days!!!
enjoying life !!!! :)

i think i getting use to be alone
there is no need for anyone to be there anymore
i will still remain happy always :)

2008-09-03T22:02:00.000-07:00

met up with qing on tues
before she started school on wed :)
hope everything will on well on her first day of school

decided to go back to swensens to work
but now i am unsure if i make the right decisions
yesterday jux started work
and i am so tired after working
it was like nv ending work
my hands nv stop
my legs nv stop running
and now wanting to withdrawl from all these pains

i like challenges but i think this is too much for me to hold

maybe i should reconsider my decision

i am so unsure of the decision i have make
but i really hope that it is the right one

i really wanna to run away

2008-08-25T08:14:00.000-07:00

YEAH ALL EXAMS ARE OVER

HOLIDAY NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

play
eat
sleep
shopping ....

more to go :)

wadever is lost is lost
the only thing nw is to look forward and carry on with ur life
love is nt everything
even if u found ur love now
do u think u can be wif her forever
STOP LYING TO URSELF
wadever is nt urs if u force it to be urs
eventually it will go away
doing all those things thinking tat she will come back to u
STOP being silly
if there is no love between u and her
no matter wad u do
U ARE JUX MAKING A FOOL OUT OF URSELF
u should know who u are
SHE HAVE MOVE ON WAT ABT U
STAYING AT THE SAME PLACE AS BEFORE THINKING THAT SHE WILL COME BACK TO U

not studying jux to be out wif her
when ur studies is like...
so u think ruining ur future for her...
IS WORTH IT ...

as a frenz i am sorry to say tat
but the is reality
if u continue to be in ur dreams and never wake up
den in the end u will suffer

SO HOPE U WILL WAKE UP FROM UR DREAMS SOON
LOVE IS NT EVERYTHING
I KNOW IS HARD BUT I BELIEVE U CAN OVERCOME IT
I HAVE FAITH IN U ...

2008-08-20T05:13:00.000-07:00

YEAH LAST PAPER TO GO ON FRIDAY !!!!!!
SO HAPPY !!!
LAST PAPER YOU KNOW

LAST PAPER !!!!!!!:)

DEN CAN GO SENTOSA
YEAH YEAH !!!!

SO MANY ACTIVITIES GOING ON DURING MY HOILDAY ....
SO LOOK FORWARD TO IT MAN !!!!

TODAY ECCONS PAPER THANKIFUL IT WAS MANGERABLE
HOPE I WILL DO WELL...

SENTOSA ,CLASS BBQ , BIRTHDAY PARTY TO ATTEND , CYCLING , TONNING OF NIGHT , SHOPPING AND MORE !!!!!

YEAH I AM ONE STEP NEARER TO ALL OF U ALL ...

2008-08-15T06:52:00.000-07:00

YEAH one paper down
3 more paper to go ...

KEEP GOING PEOPLE !!!!!!!
JIA YOU !!!!!!!!!

2008-08-12T06:36:00.000-07:00

YEAH 1 SEPTEMBER CLASS BBQ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so looking forward(:

GO SENTOSA AFTER EXAMS

YEAH.............................................................

2008-08-06T21:34:00.000-07:00

PON
PON
PON
PON
PON ....

haha have been ponning lessons
PONNING is really addicitive ...........
the thought of having to leave my hse for school
and having to travel so far
plus having to walk that looooooooooooooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnggggggggg way before reaching school
jux disecourage me to attend school
haha
tis whole week i only attending lessons on monday
den the rest days staying at home to sleep, play computer gamees, going out wif frenz to play , study , eat .... etc

i think i better attend toml lessons...

next week is the start of exams ... gosh
better catch up in my studies ......

2008-08-02T09:37:00.001-07:00

Through out all my project ..
i so love my oral presentation group..
i am so glad to have paulina ,lyynnette, wei xiong and billy in my group
it was a pleasent experience
i wish we will all pair up again
everybody did a great job in the presentation (:
HAIZ.. SHOULD HAVE TAPE OUR PRESENTATION !!!!!

LAST PROJECT TO GO!!!!!!!!!
EXAMS !!!!!!
YEAH TERM BREAK!!!!

I WANNA TO GO CYCLING, SENTOSA , SHOPPING , SLEEP, EAT , SPENT MORE TIME WITH MY FRIENDS,GO BACK YJC .............. ............ SO MANY THINGS I WANNA TO DO .................. SO LOOKING FORWARD TO TERM BREA(:

BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY MUST DO WELL IN MY EXAM (:
HOPE EVERYBODY IN MY CLASS WILL DO WELL AND PROMOTE TOGETHER (:

LETS WORK HARD MAN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-07-30T09:56:00.000-07:00

wow these past few weeks i am drown with so many project..
at last after toml i am left with ONE ..

but before you can actully catch a breath

EXAMS...
haiz... how i wish term break faster comes

i have not been having enough rest
yesterday i slept at 5 plus and woke up at 7...

i really need to catch some slp or else i will turn to a zombine ..

2008-07-19T20:47:00.001-07:00

personality test :)quite accurate

Spontaneous Idealists are creative, lively and open-minded persons. They are humorous and dispose of a contagious zest for life. Their enthusiasm and sparkling energy inspires others and sweeps them along. They enjoy being together with other people and often have an uncanny intuition for their motivations and potential. Spontaneous Idealists are masters of communication and very amusing and gifted entertainers. Fun and variety are guaranteed when they are around. However, they are sometimes somewhat too impulsive in dealing with others and can hurt people without really meaning to do so, due to their direct and sometimes critical nature.

This personality type is a keen and alert observer; they miss nothing which is going on around them. In extreme cases, they tend to be oversensitive and exaggeratedly alert and are inwardly always ready to jump. Life for them is an exciting drama full of emotionality. However, they quickly become bored when things repeat themselves and too much detailed work and care is required. Their creativity, their imaginativeness and their originality become most noticeable when developing new projects and ideas - they then leave the meticulous implementation of the whole to others. On the whole, Spontaneous Idealists attach great value to their inner and outward independence and do not like accepting a subordinate role. They therefore have problems with hierarchies and authorities.

If you have a Spontaneous Idealist as your friend, you will never be bored; with them, you can enjoy life to the full and celebrate the best parties. At the same time, they are warm, sensitive, attentive and always willing to help. If Spontaneous Idealists have just fallen in love, the sky is full of violins and their new partners are showered with attention and affection. This type then bubbles over with charm, tenderness and imagination. But, unfortunately, it soon becomes boring for them once the novelty has worn off. Boring everyday life in a partnership is not for them so that many Spontaneous Idealists slip from one affair into another. However, should the partner manage to keep their curiosity alive and not let routine and familiarity gain the upper hand, Spontaneous Idealists can be inspiring and loving partners.

2008-07-19T20:07:00.000-07:00

3 more weeks to exams ....

project due :
internet sharepoint (individual) -toml
econs -friday
effective communication -next wed
internet sharepoint -(group) nxt nxt mon

den study break
den exams
den term break (:

*although we are nt fated to be lovers but i will still love u

2008-07-19T05:35:00.000-07:00

THANK YOU JUN FENG :)

Thanks for all the effort u put in for the POM project
it is really apperciated
haiz...
i wan u to be in all my project grp
but sad to say u are only in my POM group
and
thanks for all the concern u gave to all ur frenz

there are sooooooo many things tat i wanna to thank you for

must jia you for ur exams kk :)
so happy u are u my class and u are my classmate :)

thank you for the class tat i am in nw (:

2008-07-16T08:14:00.000-07:00

this quiz is quite accurate
please try
thanks wan qing for the quiz
http://world.doubutsu-uranai.com/

You are Brown Panther, who is gentle, kind, warm and friendly.

You don't get influenced by people around you, and can keep your own pace of doing.

You have high self-esteem, and are person of strong will.

Although you really are a kind person, people regard you rather obstinate; this is because you are not very good at expressing yourself.

If you can make the others know this weakness, you will certainly be more trusted.

You dislike being restrained, and wish to stay and act freely.

You are an independent person, and do not mind being alone.

You will be successful by going into a professionalcareer.

You have extremely high ideals, and rich sensitivity.

You can not stand compromise, and therefore, may struggle between reality and ideals.

You are a person who can grow to become a greater person by overcoming many failures and difficulties, so don't grave over your little mistakes.

It is sometimes important to have a big heart and take a "so-what "attitude.

You are a hard person, and can be too critical.

People have their faults, so don't dwell upon little things too much.

When you start a family, you will take an equal stance to your husband.

And you wish to keep your job even after your marriage.

after a talk with wan qing today
suddenly i jux felt that i have change a lot
i have change to become a different person
not as happy as before
not as socialable as before
not as noisy as before
the thought of talking at times have became a burden to me instead of a happiness that i use to think and have
i jux hate to talk a lot now
jux hate to make so many frenz now
i feel tired all day nw
and ponning of lecture is wat i have been doing

y have i become like tat
i dun wan and hate to be like tat
i wanna to be wat i am b4
i wan to grow happier
how i wish holiday would faster come

maybe i will be much happier
hope everything will be alright by then

2008-07-15T08:08:00.000-07:00

Maybe we are really nt fated to be together

no matter hw hard we try there are always obstacles between us

maybe the best way and the best thing nw tat we can both do

is jux to wish each other happiness

i really hope tat u will be happy

Really happy

hope one day u will find the true love in ur life

let it remain like tat

thank you for all the nice memories tat u have gave me

it will always remain in my heart

and i will nv forget the days we spent together
thank you for everything

i will nv forget knowing u

and i will nv regret knowing u

time is the best medicine

tis is the last time i am gg to blog abt u and i promise it is really gg to be the

LAST TIME

when seating on the train today

the song came into my mind and guess wat

now to me tis song is jux an

ORDINARY SONG

no memories abt

not a single thought abt u

nth come into my mind

it is jux a blank mind

time really neutrlise everything

but no matter we are still frenz

we will be best frenz (:

nw main focus : studies

2008-07-14T08:13:00.000-07:00

HOWEVER I WAN TO SAY SORRY TO THOSE TAT HAS BEEN HURT BY MY WORDS

if i have say something wrong abt u
den i am really sorry

anyway my words cannot be take to heart
so if i nxt time i say things tat are nt nice den
i am really sorry
and hope u all will nt take it to heart

2008-07-14T03:31:00.000-07:00

y do i feel nth when i hear tat there are some ppl in my class who dun like me le
maybe i jux dun care and i nv think tat i will actually find true friends in my class ba
and i know clearly in my mind tat my role of studying in NYP is nt to entertain ppl, and nt to care if ppl like me or nt
but jux to study and graduate with good marks
even if nw i have the whole world of frenz so wat like as if nxt time i need them

i can have frenz but frenz that can help me to be better or frenz tat can really understand me and accept wat i am and nt ppl who jux wan me to change into a person tat can be pleasing to them and wat they wan the person to be like

if this is the case den hw many face do u need a day
so diff ppl u act differently
and later u soon will be backstab

WHAT A JOKE !!!!

if u cant accept me for who i am den forget it i dun need people who cannot accept me
bec one day each of us will find people who cant accept them for who they are when u have met tis ppl den u will know wat is the meaning of accepting a person who they are
therefore i will nt blame tis ppl who dun like me bec they will be at this position one day

SO STAY HAPPY(:
NO WORRIES (:

2008-07-14T02:44:00.000-07:00

so sian so i pon internet lesson
and instead of studying i played games haha
the governer of poker
it was so hard to win the poker guy la
den when i win and waiting to go to other town
and guess wat i saw

PLEASE DOWNLOAD
$19.90 CRedit card

SIAN LA

today we had accounting

CAN YOU BELIEVE IT ??
after finish my paper
i wanted to slp
luckily i check
and GUESS wat ?
all ans all wrong
i went to DO FLFO stock card instead of WAC
luckly i check

den later i saw this (50 and i saw it as 150
haha

as for the uncollectable debts the 1% i put under the not yet due instead of the 1-30days overdue

wow i am super tired lol
so many mistakes
but luckly i check all else
i will be so shocked to see my marks

haiz.. but i think there is still mistakes in my paper
hope nt a lot or even dun have
haha:)

i am so sleepy nw
but guess wat i just ate so cannot slp

den later still gt dance lesson

i think i am gg to die there man

2008-07-11T22:26:00.000-07:00

argh...
mon-accounting test
fri-pom presentation
nxt fri-econs presentation
nxt nxt wed or thrus-oral communication

den
study break
yeah(:

den
EXAMS (nxt month)

everything is coming so fast and so quickly
before u even notice is already exams and soon
TERM BREAK
yeah(:

i wanna to do well
i hope i will nt disappoint my parents anymore
yeah (: must jia you

hope everyone in my class will do as well

let fight to the end well
this is the LAST LAP to go must perserve on and everything will be fine after tat

START WELL AND END WELL (:

so looking forward to the break
thing to do during break :
-WORK
-PRACTISE DANCE
-JOIN MORE DANCE LESSONS AND LEARN MORE THING(:
-LEARN PAINO AND GUITAR
-MEET ALL MY FRENZ WHICH I HAVE NT MET FOR AGES
-SHOOPPING
-PLAY
-LOTS AND LOTS (:

if not bec i have lose u i will nt be wat i am nw
thank you for everything(:

2008-07-08T09:55:00.000-07:00

how i wish hol comes..
there are so many things i wan to do
but there is jux so insuffcient time to do
now i really understand the meaning of time is short
it is really SHORT

suddenly i jux feel so scared to jux die with no achievments in my life
it is really scary to die but
it is more SCARY if there is nth to remember or reflect on when you are on your death bed
i am really so scared to be on my death bed

i wan to learn everything tat i wish to learn nw
i will work hard i promise nv half heartedly
i will really work hard

i dun wan to be jux an ordinary gal anymore
i wan to work hard to bring the best out of me
i wan to be a all rounder
i have make a mistakes and i promise it will nv happen again
nth is gg to hold me back
NTH

i wan to be remember and nt forgotten

i hope tat everybody will think for themself and nt always live for others
LIVE FOR URSELF
love is nt everything
when it comes receive it happily
but when you lose it or it nv comes den live to ur fullest and live for urself

if it is urs no matter where u run
it will br back to you
but if it is nt urs
no maater how u chase
it will nv return

time is always the best medicine
everything will be alright soon
belief and it will really come true :)
jia you :)

ALL THE way :)

2008-07-01T23:09:00.000-07:00

argh .. i crewed up my oral presentation hope my marks is nt crewed
yeah school release so early today so can catch some slp before meeting my frnez..
no more ICA tis week(:

suddenly tis feeling was back in my heart again
i am so scared i be back in the past again.. haiz..
how i wish all tis will stop

i think i have change a lot ever since i came in to poly..
i may have grown happier at times and unhappy about more things
i think i have grown to be too strict that i have became quite unhappy
unable to have fun or feel the fun anymore
what is happening to me???

2008-06-19T20:37:00.000-07:00

haha better catch up with my studaies nw haha..
it has been really long since i have touched my books ...(:

2008-06-19T20:18:00.000-07:00

went to school yesterday to do project
haha
at last it seems like we did nth

den lynette pliated my hair for me(:
den it looks like this

so nice so love it haha:)

2008-06-17T05:20:00.000-07:00

yeah today went to do pom project
it was quite successful though
haha went to waych the halk movie with jun feng , joe and kenneth are although it was violent but it was nice
den went to cafe cateral to interview the manger
haha really enjoy the interview... and thx jun feng for treating us to ice cream
so love my pom grp ...:)

do u think jux bec u have a little beauty..
or shld i say u dun even hve any beauty but jux bec u are skinny tat y u can use this to attract ppl
do things to make urself look better and attract attention
or sometimes being dao and nt tok to ppl
gosh stop thinking too high of urself la
in my eyes u are worth nth
they may think u are pretty ( only some )- i seriously think tis ppl are blind man
but me u are nth but ....
u can go on with ur nt mature thinking and thinking too high of urself thinking ba
hope i nv see u again anymore man....
tis kind of ppl shld jux exist in tis world man *uf

2008-06-15T09:24:00.001-07:00

YEAH AT LAST PC show ended= no more work = i earn $320
yeah haha
although tiring but it is all worth while ..
i quite enjoy the job :)
getting use to it but it ended

haha so happy this hol i am gg to meet ppl tat i have nt been meeting for long ...

hey old frenz we are gg to meet up v soon ... tis thrus man ... haha

NXT week is gg to be a busy week
-have to do all the hw
-meet frenz
-go shopping
-do project
-sign up courses
-play
-sleep

haha so many :)
hw i wish hol nv ends

my expedition starting toml
meeting ernest , jocelyn adn kelson for lunch...
haha it has been long since we eat together
so exicited :)

yeah hope it will be a good week:)

2008-06-14T10:28:00.000-07:00

NO pain = no love???

#1 If your lover betrayed you, what will your first reaction be?
i will break down ba

#2 If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
to have a goal in lfe

#3 What will your dream wedding be like?
to be wif someone i love tat all

#4 Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
yup

#5 What's your ideal lover like?
good character, not a bad looking and most imporatantly i love him and he love me

#6 Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
being loved by someone!

#7 How long do you intend to wait for someone u really love?
i dun know

#8 If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
sad but will try hard to get over it

#9 Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
yes. how i wish we can meet

#10 Are you in love or being loved now?
yes

#11 How do you see yourself in ten years time?
i dun know

#12 Who are currently the most important people to you?
family members, frenz and him i think

#13 What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
my loving frenz

#14 Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
anything as long as i am happy

#15 What's the first thing you do every morning?
look at the time

#16 Would you give your all in a relationship?
yes

#17 If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
the one i love the most and this will nv happen if i really love the guy

#18 What type of friends do you like?
any

#19 What type of friends do you dislike?
irrataing ppl

#20 What would you name your children in future? (Give 1 boy, 1 girl)
i dun know

2008-06-13T09:47:00.000-07:00

SIngapore people= gt looks , no character
Malaysian people = no looks , good character

Therefore where to find a guy with looks and character ?

Ans = China bec they are all chinese ppl den can slowly find unlikely ppl in malaysia and singapore they only have half chinese ppl staying there so character cut half
haha:)

2008-06-12T09:44:00.000-07:00

my heart hurt, breaks and hw i wish it dies

NO PAIN AT ALL

2008-06-10T21:58:00.000-07:00

although nw there are so many disappointments in life..

but i beleive with this disappointments it will make me grow stronger ..
i beleive i will be..

haha thx kelson for intro such a good job

YEAH 320 dollars by end of tis week..

i am gonna to invest on things tat i wan to learn

i wan to attend :
-hip hop lessons
-learn to play guitar
-learn to play paino

I am one step nearer to my stage ...
i know i will be there v soon ..
WATCH ME ....
enjoy staying at my stage ...

no matter wehre i am i will be back for u ...
no matter hw far i fly
you will always be in a corner of my heart and always REMEMBER

*if it cannot forgetten den let it stay there let it remain in one corner of ur heart and let it be a part of ur life story

2008-06-08T09:38:00.000-07:00

went out with Qing today
yeah we went shopping after a long while

YEAH at last i brought a new sport shoes after sch a long time of complaining
haha so happy

den went to hong knog cafe to eat

den went plaza sing den isaw ben
haha so long nv see him le

as usual he always tok abt the lamest things and always like to pull my hair
haiz....
AH BEI U KNOW I GOT NO MORE HAIR LE STOP PULLING LOL

haha den sat and starbucks to tok

haha it seems like we have never ending topic to tok

YEAH SO LOVE QING :)

hey frm now on lets nt regret any of our decision anymore and live life to the fullest..
lets wait till we forget haha...

YEAH HAPPY GAL ALL THE WAY :)

2008-06-04T07:35:00.000-07:00

YEAH YEAH :)
ALL ICA FINISH ...
HAHA

At LAST
hoildays coming:)

yeah finish my statistic project ...
everything done haha...
yeah yeah so happy:)
never feel so hardworking b4 haha:)

anyway WAnQing i thinki will nv lose my way again NEVER
i found my new goal and that is
TO BE A HAPPY GAL

haha:)
i know i will :)

haha yesterday went out with wan qing dear
sat at starbucks to drink
den went sweesens to eat haha
had a fun time
it seems so long when i last step in there :)
met all those familiar ppl
so lo9ve them and miss them
yeah nxt week can go back and work
and get the nice nice shirt i wan haha:)

den today went out with viven to far east haha
at first i did nt wan to buy anything but in the end i still did
the things are all so nice so love them haha:)
i really had fun with viven
haha
found a new shopping parner in class
yeah yeah :)
we should go for more this kind of shoppong trips man
even if only we two :)
i will still be happy
yeah yeah :)

HAPPY GALL ALL THE WAY :)

2008-05-30T10:33:00.000-07:00

yeah so happy two ICA papers down and the last econs paper nxt week and hoilday :)
so happy :)

haha so gald that i did well for my statistic today haha...
wow so impressed by JUN FENG full marks le ..
but gald to see tat his hard work actually paid off..
thought Wei Qing and Randy statistic yesterday and haha glad to hear tat Randy pass..
As for Wei Qing haha he gt half my mark man... haha... see la dota dota...
maybe if question comes out dota he will be the best student in class haha....
but dun be discourage kk must jia you for the nxt ICA ...
haha our class did overall okay la...
glad to see a lot of ppl pass

den went out wif Qing today...
went hong kong cafe den far east and we went Cafe Cateral ...
den in fast east had a great chat with 1 of the shor tender...
a v interesting women ....
haha
half the time we are eating but had fun time wif her ...
yeah we are gg under a diet plan soon and hope it will be a success man :)
lets jia you...
den we will be able to see the slim version of ourself
haha...
den can eat and eat and eat le
haha:)

2008-05-26T09:25:00.000-07:00

was a little SAD bec i make the stupidest mistake today and tat is

to look at the other side of the guy ans

gosh.. i lose the 1 or 2 mark to almost full marks ..
if i have nt look the ans would remain and i would be right ...
hiaz... this is to teach me tat i should be confident wif my ans and nt have doubts

but anyway a thing to console is tat i think i will still gt a A haha
hpoe so
wish nth goes wrong and everything to be fine haha(:

dun be discourage for those ppl who did nt perform as well
u will and u can do better nxt time..
dun be discourage lets look onto our goals and lets fight to there k(:
nth is impossible unless u give up on urself kk(:

thx ppl for all the concern and encouragment
i will stay strong and be happy always
i am nt gonna be sad or emo anymore
i wan to be a happy gal and i know i can do it (:
even if i am sad i will still bring a smile
I AM NT ACTING STRONG K..
i am strong and nth can be more important than my mission tat i have when i live
i cannot bring anything to anyone but at least wif me i can bring u laughter and happiness haha(:

I AM GG TO STAY HAPPY ALWAYS
AND BE A HAPPPY GAL
THERE IS NTH TAT IS IMPOSSIBLE IN UR EYES SO THERE IS NTH I HAVE TO WORRY (:

2008-05-23T23:36:00.000-07:00

argh............
ICA coming haiz... i am really v scared... and i dun even know y??
i am really v scared...
i wanna to do the best and score high marks...
i really dun wanna to disappoint my parents anymore...
doing all the thing to make sure tat i will do well but even if i do all the insecurity still remians
hw i wish i could get rid of u ...
when randy always say "see u therE"
and i always reply "hope to see u there "
i kept wondering if i could really reach there...
I really dun know
hiaz...
hw i wish all tis would end...
hw hard muz i work to let u go off

yesterday i went for the jam and hop tat was organised in school ..
wif randy. eugene, kenneth, xin yi, viven, karren, aizat, and paulina
haha had fun there ...
everybody was so high later....
haha so love paulina.... we had fun there...
haha glad i did nt went really wild man or else it will be trouble haha..:)
haha hope they all enjoy it too :)
den went to mos to eat
den went home wif kenneth
we had a great chat and yesterday i saw i diff side of him :)
it was nt bad though haha:)
AND WE ARE FRENZ ONLY ...

stay at home today ..
suddenly i juz thought a lot...
things like
-wat i wan in the future
-y do i really live for
-wat to do to feel the emptyness inside me
-wat is my real self
-hw to be really happy
- am i really happy
-hw to make my family a really happy family
-wat i wan frm myself
-hw to get rid of the insercurity inisde me
-hw to be wat i wanna to be
-y do i study for
and more...

i think i am gg back to the past losing my way again i really hate tis feeling ...
wanting to get rid of tis feeling or nt running away frm all tis
using all my might to nt think of all tis
but i am really v tired of all tis...

tryingg to remain happy even though i am nt ..
trying to laugh and make everything go away
but sometimes i really really feel v v tired of all tis..

i am really v tired
and i hate to be tired but i know i cannot

2008-05-06T07:44:00.000-07:00

y are we always missing each other
are we really nt fated to be together ..
when i hear abt tat actually u were in love wif me i was shocked ...
after lving u for so long..
crying for u...
hearing frm u who u like and helping u ...
AFTER ALL THIS THAT HAS HAPPEN ....

den u told me actually u actually love me ???
wat do u wan me to do ???
when nw i have no feelings for u ..
dun u think is too late...

jux by saying and nt do anything will actually let me know that u actually really love me...
wat do u wan to belief???

the only thing nw i could say is that
IT IS ALL OVER LETS NT TOK ABT IT ANYMORE!!!!!!!

life is jux so unpredicitable ....

2008-03-27T00:50:00.000-07:00

最后一次

在我最后一次闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听

我使劲全力不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇不能再陪你
但不要忘记

你曾经答应我你会好好活下去

先走了去了好远的地方
不能再陪你看日出
等不到天亮
所有回忆没去却并不容易
生死由天决定不要太伤心

在我最后一次闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听

我使劲全力不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇不能再陪你
但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去我永远爱你

2008-03-26T10:58:00.000-07:00

went to shwan hse to eat...
den went out wif qing in the afternoon ...
i have learn a lot wif her ...
i am so glad to have her as my frenz...
i am glad tat i did nt gave her up and took the last step ...
i can jux be myself in front of her no worries at all...
she allow me to see wat in the past i did nt use to see ...
i always thought tat i needed a lot of frenz
i needed to be popular to feel love...
but after knowing her i know tat is nt true...
so wat if u know the whole world ppl but hw many will really care for u ...
nw i jux feel tat i jux need a few a few tat will really care for me tat is ENOUGH

tis is all i need ....
half of my life seraching for wat i dun need jux make me feel like an idoit but i am really glad tat i have found an ans at last ...

after toking to qing today i jux feel gradually quite sad...
thinking tat i am always the most unfortunate person in thw world make me feel v stupid to have tis thinking nw ...
in tis world actually there are even more ppl who are even more unfortuante den me ..
i am toatlly nt fit to say this words...
TOTALLY NT FIT AT ALL..
sometimes hw i wish i have the power to make them happy ...
there are so many thinngs i wan to say but i dun know hw to put ion words
haiz...

jux so pei fu qing,...
she is suh a nice gal...
she can sacrifice everything for a frenz ...
i think if it is me i dun think i can do it lo...
i am jux so gald u are my frenz:)

2008-03-19T10:14:00.000-07:00

haiz... yesterday was a realli bad day for me at first...
felt so unhappy nv thought tat u will do tis to me...
u shld have at least ask me.. at least i will nt be v upset abt it..
do u know hw would it feel if i heard the news frm other ppl ???
when ppl thinking tat i will be gg along and giving the "STOP BLUFFING" face saying tat it is so impossibe tat i am nt invited...
i have nv allow ppl to feel leave out but y ppl are doing tis to me nw...
do u all so dislike me until like tat...
but the only thing i am glad is tat u were honest me when i ask u...
felt so left out...
is tis really wat will happen to us eventually...
APART kept passing through my brian..
i know tat by my character eventually we will be...
but cant u see i am doing everything to save it.. and nt wanting it to end...
but i think u dun see it bec of ur other frenz...
i know clearly tat they are obvious more impt den me bec u have known them much earlier den me.... so i had nth to say....
but i really wish tat the ending would be a nice wan...

does it mean tat loving someone means tat they dun need frenz anymore???

i wanting to get rid of tis mentality saying tat "i am pretty so u are expected to like me"and when u dont the feeling of anguish comes out cursing y he does nt like me but like a so ugly gal instead ....

is thinking have upset me for long ...
i hate tis thinking ...
tis is feeling makes me feel worse everyday... when they pass through my mind...

but i am glad when i went to meet vincent and kelvin
it is seriously long when i last saw them..
they really change a lot...
had a happy time together esp when we went ming zhui hse to play mahjong .. wow so impressed tat they could continuously play till dawn ...
and the most the most impresive one is tat vincent could tok frm the moment he came in to the hse till he left the hse and totally dun feel thirsty...
i am really glad to have this entertainment .. although at times it may be irratating but we really enjoy his nonsense causing us to have continuous laughter i am so glad to have him as my frenz... haha :)

wan qing hope everything will be fine for u :)
cheer up no matter wat happen we will support u :)
if there is anything i can help please tell me
although i am a v chatty person but i ahve a pair of good listening ear ..
so always give me a call when u wan to borrow k:)
lve u :)

2008-03-03T09:11:00.000-08:00

todae... went out wif my sweensens frenz..
haha ... quite a fun day...
spent on bomb luckily tis is once in a few times nt everytime...
we spent abt 300 dollars todae... wow so impressive
we went to had lunch together , den went to play pool
den we went for three hrs cycling haha ...
so fun
den went swenseens to have our dinner...
we spent like 180 dollars jux eating haha ....
den went to k box and had a fun time there....
haha
so love all of them...
i am so blessed to have all of them as my frenz....

hiaz... went seating the bus home today ..
i think a lot...
i felt that i am lost again...
have no goals in life...
feeling so unloved
feeling so out of place most of the time...
i think i have changed to be a so unhappy person
and nw i dun even know hw does it feel like to smile from my heart..
i hate tis change in me...
really hate it...
sometimes i jux feel like i dun belong there ...
i feel tat i dun even know a single person ..
and have emo one side and nobody even give a damn abt it...
having no one to love and jx having to see ppl falling in love
and even having to become a matchmaker to them...
i am feeling so terrible ...
there is nth tat i can look forward to nw ...
really pratically NOTHING
wat am i gonna to do...
feel like breaking down ...
who is gonna to save me from all tis
who????
and will anyone give a damn...
i doubt so ba....

2008-02-28T07:21:00.001-08:00

hiaz... maybe i am really v selfish ...
i am really so sorry ...
maybe u really need a frenz ...
and maybe tat frenz is her ...
maybe i should nt be angry wif anyone...
it is nt anybody fault....
wanting a frenz is nt anybody fault ..
i think maybe i am juz over sensitive ba...
Sorry if i have hurt anybody ...
i will nv look back anymore..
future is my hope... nt regrets
i promise i will try to accept him...:)

haha
so look forward to the monday outing haha ...
it is gonna be v great.... haha
it will be sure a fun day :)
haha :)

wan qing lets find a day to go swimming kk :)

2008-02-25T08:13:00.000-08:00

stop telling me tat u did nt change
the fact is u did ...
i really dislike the wat u are nw...

2008-02-22T11:04:00.000-08:00

wow so happy todae... haha
went out wif my frenz.. den brought so many things
gosh i spent like 60 plus just for tat afternoon
wow jux so impress wif myself..
haha but did nt really regret buying all these things
haha
later went to find Qing they all ...
haha den spent another like 30 plus ...
haha.. but we had a fun time togather
den went to play pool ..
haha at last i play pool
all thanks to qing and shu fen
haha so love them ...
thanks for teaching me haha:)

2008-02-18T09:33:00.000-08:00

i need a little more luck than a little
CUz everyime i get stuck the word wont fit
And everytime that i try i get tongue tied
i need a little good luck to get me by

i need a little more help than a bit
like the perfect one word that no one has heard yet
cuz every time i try i get tongue tongue
i need a little good luck to get me by this time

2008-02-17T09:56:00.000-08:00

haha today so happy
went to chg my blogskin and friendster layout ...
den went to work ...
haha had a nice time playing with the ppl haha:)
really love my frenz there ...
they are always so nice ...
they were nv self centre no matter hw tired or busy they are..
they would always give a helping hand when u are always in need
even when u are nt they will still help u ...
never mind of the extra work they do...
and always withstanding my nonsense ...
and always giving in to me nv allowing me to nt have any sadness in me...
i am really so happy to have this bunch of frenz...
no matter how tired i would be trying to balance the both work but i will nv say i will quit ...
i really really love this job a lot...
although it is v tiring but... with all the frenz there tat would always motivate me ...
i love working with everyone of them..
they are juz like my angel always bring me endless joy...
i would nv forget this period i work there ..
although there are still sad memories there but the happy moments will be always the one i remember ....

sometimes i always think tat no matter hw high postion u are .. u are still a human ...
y shld we always put a fake front in front of them when they come
are they really v scary tat u have to put a fake front
cant imagine hw do u lead a life like tat..
hate tis kind of ppl ..
loving u when they have nth left...
acting as if they are nice in front of u but u will nv know wat they would do behind u...
y muz ppl make themselves so tired by doing all these
or is it .. they are too use to it tat they will nt feel tired anymore...
feaering to have tis kind of frenz but it can nv be advioded...

2008-02-15T10:20:00.000-08:00

SORRY !!!!
i think there is some misunderstanding in this post ..
yup some of the words are meant for u but some are nt...
but watever the case this post is also somehow related to our situation ba...
it is true tat i am angry and v disappointed wif u ...
and i am telling u i am nt uninterested in ur words but maybe is ba of tiredness making it let u feel tis way..
and i nv thought u were this kind of person ..
although i admit tat when i was angry tis thought actually past my mind but after tat it faded ...
i am glad tat u actually gave it a thought and after i read ur blog i am touched by ur words i really wish this is all true...
i am sorry for my one moment selfish towards u ..
o maybe it is juz an excuse maybe i am really selfish ...
nv thought tat one day other ppl words would weigh higher den mine ba and the person is somebody tat u know a fews day only making me more angry..
maybe is juz me ... i juz feel tat if when u gave it a ask if i wanted to join at least i would nt feel totally left out and think tat u wanted everything to urself
i am sorry for this thought i have ba..
maybe is juz we are different ba.. and we do things differently ba..
bec if it was me i would ask u if u wanted to join but maybe tis is nt the way hw u do it..so it is nt totally ur fault ....
but watever the case eventually it is u tat will be wif him if he is ur Mr Right nT me so i have no say in watever decision u make but
as a frenz i really wish tat there would nt be any regrets for any decsion u make ...
and i really wish tat tis time u will nt let any chance slip by and nt leave any regrets in ur life...
but i really wish tat if u really like him den i wish tat u will be honest to me i really really dun wish history will repeat itself i really hate it to repeat...
AND I REALLY HATE MYSELF FOR HAVING TIS KIND OF CHARACTER..
GOD is always fair...
watever u good in something there will be something u will be bad in..
nobody is perfect...
i may be able to make a lot of frenz and ppl may admired my ability but do they see wat i lost ..frenz tat are really true and tat can last forever if i can choose i really dun wan tis ability ... i wan to have the eaily satisfied feeling at least i will be happy and nv feel lonely and no bother to tok to ... and feel totally lost...
Do u know tat at one point in time when i know u i was really jealous by ur beauty ... i am so jealous y i did nt have tat i really wish to hate u but i cannot bring myself to do so ... bec we have tis so strong bond in btwn of us tat cannot bring myself to hate u .... and when tell me tat actually u do nt have a lot of frenz tat i was so shocked tat bring myself even more nt to hate u ...nt bec i pity u is bec after knowing u .. i have found out lots of things ... things tat u did to kali and Jane tat make me v touched ...u can do so much for them and nv wish the returns ... and choosing to belief even if she really did lie to u ...and u are willing to share things tat others dun have ...u juz let me know tat frenz are the ppl tat will cover ur back and try to help u improve on things tat u once did nt have...
i admit tat we have drifted and partly it is bec of me ...
maybe bec i have met new frenz causing us to drift but i will do anything and i will try my best to salvage this friendship tat we have ...
i really dun wan to lose u as a frenz although it is juz a one year but it feels like we knew each other for years... we have went through so much and i really hope it will nt end here ...
really hope tat we nxt time we will honest to each other if there are these things tat u are really v unhappy wif me i really hope tat u will say it out... i dun wan u to hide everything in ur heart ... and act calm and pretend nth happen... i really dun like tis feeling...
lets be ppl who can take criticism.. and willing to accept wat is being say and change for the better
and i will believe tat FOREVER is nt only can be found inside ur storybk but it can be found in our friendship...
and i really hope no obstacles will stop us frm being frenz...
pull me back if u think i have drifted...
i am sorry if these happens...
we will ppl who is willing to share and help each other improve k:)
we will return back to the past :)
WE WILL !!!!!

i love the way it feel when u touch my hand
dont wan to let u go
i love the way u say that i am ur man
dont understand y we cant go on and go on
dont understand why
you dont belong in my arms

And even if i cried a thousnads tears tonight
would u come back to me
and even if i walked on the water
would u come out of the sea
now i cant spend my life standing by
cause even if i miss u
you are still nt missing me

It is funny how my heart just wont let it go
i juz dun understand
it is crazy how the pain seemd overflow
the memories of you here wif me by my side
i cant deny tat u are the love of my life

EMPTy

2008-02-14T09:29:00.000-08:00

i really hate the way u are nw...
u are really gg to get on my nerves soon
U KNOW!!!!!!!
if u dun know hw to balance ur life den dun be greedy to get everything ...
if u lack of confidence den u better find back ur confidence dun think tat by keeping it all to urself den the thing will always be there forever ..
i am telling u nw IS NT TRUE
and if tis is ur choice den i am telling u
U BETTER DUN REGET
y did u turn like tat ...
does all this really will change u
do u really really lack of love until like tat ...
is one word more impt den mine ..
if this is the case den i dun see the reason y we shld maintain this relationship ...
it is nt i am nt understanding but watever i see is nt wat u say .. tat makes me really angry...
but i hope u will never regret..
u having tis thinking tat u all always be like tat ..
i am telling plz be more realistic
it will nv be true..
but if u choose to believe i have nth to say...
wanting to keeping it everything to urself i am telling u u will eventually lose everything ..
and when tat day come..
u better dun run to me to tell me
the only thing i am gg to tell u is too bad...
go and find wat u thought u have ... bec tat is ur decsion..
i really really hate tis kind of person...
nv thought tis will happen to us..
fearing tis day will come but it came so fast tat i am unable to think and react..
didnt know we drift so apart already until there is no turning back...
i really really dun wan to lose u but if this is fate den i have really nth to say...

2008-01-30T08:42:00.000-08:00

AT LAST ....
wow after working everyday ...
at last i have a chance to rest and catch up wif my frenz haha..
went out wif QIng today.. haha
did nt really go anyway though
bac i was really really v tired after many packed scheldue tat cause me to be unable to breath ...
so sorry Qing
we will catch up another day and i promise i will be full of enwergy to entertain u horse haha,,,

feeling so tired and sad...
thank you for the everything u have done for me..
i am really glad i met u..
although i know tat there is no possibility tat we will be together but i still wish for it ...
please stop giving me hope and later tarnish it.. tis feeling is really terrible ..
maybe tis is wat u wan to do but do u know tat tis always shake the decsion in my heart when u always do tis ???
can u stop treating me so nice...
and stop misleading me giving me hopes den tarnish it with ur words
i really really hate it
really hate it

2008-01-03T19:08:00.000-08:00

Do you know?
Do you know?
Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know,
do you know,
do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?

If birds flying south is a sign of changes
At least you can predict this every year
Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly
I can’t get it to speak
Maybe if I knew all the things it took to save us
I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me
Look in your eyes to see something about me
I’m standing on the edge and I don’t know what else to give.
Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?
How can I love you?
How can I love you?
How can I love you?
How can I love you?
If you just don’t talk to me, babe.I flow through my act
There's a question: Is she needed?
And decide all the man I can ever be.
Looking at the last 3 years like I didI could never see us ending like this.
Do you know?)
Seeing your face no more on my pillowIs a scene that’s never ever happened to me.
(Do you know?)
But after this episode I don’t see
You could never tell the next thing life could be
Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know,
do you know,
do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?
Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?
(Do you know?)
(Do you know?)
(Do you know?)
(Do you know?)
Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?

2008-01-02T08:06:00.000-08:00

haha so happy todae went out with qing todae haha so happy ...
gg out wif her make me feel so relaxed i really really lve her company..
last yr was nt a total waste .. i am so glad tat i found a so good frenz ...
haha brought a bag todae wow i spent so much time on choosing the bag haha.. but i really like the bag...
den went YJ back haha... it seemd so wired bec we went back wearing our home clothes .. but the feeling went off when i met all my frenz... so love them ... i saw my TWINNIE .. den we took a photo.. so miss her it has being really really long when i met her ... glad tat everything is gg smoothly in her life :) den celebrate birthday and a quick bite of the birthday cake
THANKS YONG WEN FOR ORGANISING IT
thinking tat i will see HIM but i did nt... but i think i have really forget u totally really totally and nw ur name is juz so unfamiliar until i have a doubt whether do i really know u ...

haha den went burger king wif QINg haha we spent abt 1 1/2 hr there toking.. toking to her make me so assured tat my chioce is right ... maybe i juz nt suit to be there and i think nw i have find a place whereby it suits me and i see a big hope in this road tat i have chose and i am gg to walk and i wish tat it will be good ...haha den went Hong Kong cafe to eat den we continue toking ... haha so love QING ... we are juz like frenz tat have nt met for thosands of years... we had nv ending things to say.. haha ... tis is so funny and we are juz like sisters who have so many things in common ... i am really realli glad to have her... lve u so much
i wish tat u will really find a place tat is for u and tat tis would be a correct path for u and we will work hard to goal we have and tis goal will nv be dream anymore

*really wish tat i will know u till the end
*continuing loving u maynt be the best thing but letting go maynt be a
bad thing
*being frenz is better than losing u eventually
*love is not about finding someone you can live with,
but finding someone you can't live without. - really lve tis phrase

2007-12-28T21:12:00.000-08:00

feeling so terrible...
unsure y i would have tis feeling
nv thought tat i would have tis reaction ...
maybe it is juz tat i am nt prepared thinking tat it was wat i thought but it did not happen...
the reply gave me a shock.. and my heart felt empty
REALLY EMPTY...
INSECURITY feels my heart ...
y would all tis happen
feel like crying but i juz could nt..
but tears kept rolling down ...
having to bless them when i could nt no matter hw hard i try ...
always being a idoit in front of ppl all these while thinking tat u are mine
telling the ppl u like saying tat there is a possiblity
BUT
it is all a joke
WAT A BIG JOKE
hw i wish i did nt ask abt it and nt knowing anything maybe i would have felt better ...
dun wish to meet anybody nw
I THINK TIS IS THE BEST BIRTHDAY GIFT U HAVE GIVEN TO ME .
REALLY THE BEST

2007-12-20T21:51:00.000-08:00

falling in love is nobody fault
breaking up is nobody to be blame
times passes so fast it is gg to be a new yr again ..
looking back at tis yr ...
it is juz all a waste ..
WASTE..
chossing the wrong road ..
messing up my life and unsure of wat i wan
nw i am really lost
LOST COMPELETY
who is going to help me...
i really dun know ...
sometimes really feel so sick of life ..

wat is the real meaning of life??
having nv ending boyfriend??
having good results tat everybody admired to have??
having thousnds of frenz?
having lots of money tat will nv end??
having good family??
having goal in life tat will nv cause you to lose ur way??

wat is the real meaning of life??
who is able to ans me
no matter hw much u have in life
you will eventually lose it
den wat for do we live when at last we are gg to lose all of it ..
i really dun kn0w..
FEELIING SO EMPTY AND LOST
WHO IS GG TO SAVE ME FROM ALL TIS???

I AM BACK AT LAST

2007-12-05T10:36:00.000-08:00

haha... so long since i have blog:)
wow my whole december is packed with many many so many exciting events...
so love it it seems like i am living a v fruitful life love tis feeling although it is tiring rushing here and there to get all stuff done by the deadline... tis is all so fun.. i have learn a lot and to work much better under stress
love all my church leaders:) thanks for allowing me to have the chance to do more for the church and i will do wif all my best and nt disappoint you all.. u all sit back and see i will rise up one day to take ur place haha:)
but even den i will still love all of u all... hehe :)

and now i feel so comfortable and happy in my connect group ad i love each and everyone of them . they are juz so great ppl and i learn a lot from them :) and i thank you for the leaders i have .. they are juz so great so love them:)...nv felt living my life so fruiful before... now i am getting use to rely on God more and wif Him things have been falling in place ..:)He is such a great God who always keeps His promise...
now i feel so Faith feel... it seems tat i have no trouble bec He have work things in my heart allowing me to be a happier and much better person... things like which path to take nxt yr.. although He did nt tell me personally where to go but this words stay in my heart all along"He will direct ur path we juz to have to do it wif all ur faith and if it is the wrong path He will pull you back in time".. this words seem so rooted into my heart.. it seem to be telling me tat i juz have to trust in Him and do things wif more Faith and if it is wrong He will pull me back :) so glad to have Him in me:)

nw i have gt to catch up wif all my fren... even though wif all my tight scheldue i believe tat if u have the desire .. you will surely to be able to do it... yup like todae i went to meet Wanqing which i have nt meet her for mths haha:) so love her.. she juz so0 nice hehe :).. so happy tat she have change for the better :) got to catch up wif all my other frenz man

haha and i have got a new book todae and i am so excited to read it hehe:)yeah man

i wish the hse visit plan will work out well and it will be good :) and wish tat the integrations will come back :)

todae a sermon was preached and it was abt being organised in order to learn and grow and i am so glad tat todae i have done a timetable for myself and i have a plan my week coming ahead and i feel so happy tat i am living so fruitful and nt without a vision anymore but nw living wif a big vision :) i am nt lost anymore .. the feeling of organised is so great and feeling nt lost is juz so great tat no words can explain it...

2007-11-16T07:06:00.000-08:00

so happy at last i got a job:)
haha:)so glad that i went cg today.. it was a v impactful one i learn a lot and thanks to all the leaders who have make a great impact in my life.. really thank you... it is all of you tat make me wat i am today.. i am really happy to have you all :).. and with all of you i will grow even more... and now my aim is to be like Christine.. i wan to love my leaders as how she love her leaders and i wan to be like them... i wan to rise up as a leader and do lots more is HIS house :)

2007-11-06T20:27:00.000-08:00

feeling so troubled nw..
neither ways also does nt help.... i really dun know wat i really wan to do in my life
i am glad to have tis parents who are understanding even if i do nt do well but i really hope tat they will respect my last decsion and nt force me to a way tat will cause me to fail again...
i really wish my last decision will the wise decision and nt one which will cause me to fail again..
i really wan HIM to give me the guidance i really wish he will show me the way and lead me to the way HE wan me to go.. and one word from HIM i will follow no matter how hard it will be .. i will fight on and have faith in HIM....
Since i have chose tis path i will take all the responsibilty for the consequences tat is gonna come...
Qing i really wish tat u will be alright kay...
promoting may nt be the best but retaining may nt be the worse always look on the bright side... it is better to feel sad nw den after u get back ur A lvl cert and cry... tat is really the worse thing and their would nt be any turining back anymore.. since nw the decision have being made ..u dun have to be trouble anymore of which path to take and i wish tat u will make a wise decision on which path u wan to go and do ur best and nt let history repeat again...and i wish nth will stop u frm ur dreams and sucess k.. and do ur best in where ever u are kay....
also... i wan to tell u tat u are nt alone i will always be by ur side no matter wat k ... if u feel sad or troubled u can always give me a call and i will always be there k .... :) i am glad to have u as my frenz and i dun wish to lose u k... :) stay happy :) lve u :)

2007-10-25T17:25:00.000-07:00

nw promos end but there is still chinese intensive and oral presentation...
haiz.... when will all these end

"why must we study anyway at last we would all juz die and all our knowledge would juz fade away " tis always pass my mind...
it sounds so true.. but nv reflected in our life... there are ppl who juz study for the sake of a paper ... a paper tat would give them a bright future... but it is always nt like tat.. there are ppl who are illterate but are able to succeed in their life...
sometimes these examples let me ponder a lot..
maybe tis is juz an excuse..
i juz so tired nt by exams but lots of things...
there is always no ending of trouble...
when i am alone all tis matters would juz popped up in heart and in mind.. causing me to feel so tired and weak ...
maybe i juz have to learn how to let go and forgive and forget ...
the onli time when i have peace is when i am in god 's hse...
i really enjoy the accompany of all my church frenz...
haha lve them lots :)
juz wish all these problems would be taken away by the wind and tat i will nv see them again....