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Saturday, September 29, 2007 @ 9:35 PM I promise you I won't forget the times we shared, the tears we cried You'll always be the sun in my sky It may be fate that brings us back to meet again someday Even though we go seprate ways I'll remember yooooou, and baby that's forever true you're the one that I'll always miss never thought it would feel like this I'll be there for yooooou, no matter what your goin' through in my heart you'll always be, forever baby I'll remember you If the day should come when you need someone (you know that i'll follow) I will be there Don't ever let therebe a doubt in your mind 'cause I'll remember you, you |
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@ 12:18 AM it is not i am going crazy anymore ... i seriously think i am really crazy.. all my frenz have the same thinking i think they are all so scared of me ...haha i think i am just ONE .. onli ONE more step to MI wif all this stress i am living in maybe nw HAlF a step in... i think when prmo come.... i think i will have a bed there ...haha and there is no turning back... nw my heart is living in fear.. things have been leaving me... people have been living me .. the day will come when i will left wif nothing realli NOTHING as for nw wat i fear most is losing tis seat this seat is so near yet so far... i am realli v SCARED i will lose tis seat eventually tis is wat i dun wish to see at last.. tis will be the most painful thing in life i am nw stuggling so hard to get the seat but i really fear tat no matter hw hard i struggle to get the seat the seat will still be gone realli GONE and forever . .. ... .... ..... ....... GONE.... |
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Thursday, September 20, 2007 @ 5:05 AM we can nv predict wat will happen in the future or toml or the nxt mins or even the nxt seconds.. life is juz so vulnerable ... life is juz like a battle tat nv ends.. and we will have to grap every chance to live.. and sometimes the fear in ur heart make u nv peaceful.. and feeling secure will nv pass ur mind.. it is juz impossibe... in life there so many impossible and sometimes taking a min to think y we we live.. make me wonder lots...maybe... there is so many maybe maybe maybe in ur heart tat no one could give u a assure ans... sometimes nv living can be a gd thing and dying may nt be a bad thing.. it is juz wat we all think.. and maybe after all impossibe can be possible and maybe be sure... isit better ... by then battles will all end .... and ur heart will nv have a doubt and i will follow u whenever u are and do all things... and i will be always be in ur heart... and always remember... and everything will be true.. and i will always be by ur side and the meaning of sadness and love will nv be known isnt it better... |
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Tuesday, September 18, 2007 @ 3:18 AM haiz... it is jus a short day but many things happened... todae haha.. i pon chinese and econs .. haha ..i am turning to a v bad gal...haha.. den had chem and math.. haha i am so happy in math class .. especially when allison hand me the gp eassy...haha i scored well in it.. hehe.. so happy..plus i oso scored well in math hehe.. more happy..den had PE.. sprain my leg so unable to do PE... den Xin Yi had gastric pain.. ouch it is so pain...luckily i am nt like tat.. haiz.. although i am nt her .. but i quite pity her.. haiz... wish she will be fine ... den had gp and chem.. haha... todae past v fast...den went home.. den when taking the MRT i had a chat wif yong wen .. she said many things .. tat let me think alot... after tat i went to view her blog... it make me think even more... it is true tat there are times when u look back at the past .. u will regert for wat u have done .. but there is no turning back anymore .. the onli thing u can do nw is just to look forward and do watever u can to make sure tat u give ur best so tat nxt time when u look back u will nt regret for not doing the things tat u have nt done... haiz... no matter hw much u hate the schl... there will be things which u will miss when u leave... maybe is nt the schl..but the teacher, frenz or wat.. but surely there will be things to take away and miss after u miss... just look on the bright and think of the laughter tat u have in the schl... and everything will be fine... |
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Thursday, September 13, 2007 @ 9:36 AM todae... is quite a fun day.. haha.. i have been laughing frm moring till school ends and cell end haha... came schl wif zhi wei... haha we had an interesting conversation ... den we pon assembly wif allison and yong wen ... den at last when i went for chinese lesson since i dun even know when i started ponning ..den the first thing the teacher does was to scold and scold .. haiz... but it was fun .. wif the 103 ppl they are like entertainers to me especially the 4 who always sits at the back for the chinese lesson haha.. they are funny haha... den went for chem lesson den had fun.. we tok and disturbed some of the 110 ppl haha.. they are funny ppl too.. haha now days everybodi is funny to be haha.. i think i am gg insane wif all the stress .. tat is y i am like tat .. haha allison and yong wen is so scared of me .. haha .. it is fun making fun of them.. haha.. den we had econs den desmond said so many things tat is so funny den we all started laughing .. haha .. den our econs teacher scolded us.. haha.. but it was still fun.. den had 2 hr gp.. den saw the 103 ppl.. .. they are like ghost .. always see them everywhere haha.. but it is fun bec they are funny ppl.. den had math and bio .. nth much happen there .. den went to find miss tan after schl den i ran after den twisted my ankle .. den it was v painful and the stupid yee yew still can laugh lol.. haha but it was quite funny .. den i told all my cell members abt it.. haha ... they are nice ppl.. .. den jieral offer to piggy back me to his house haha.. he was v funny and nice.. but cannot all else some ppl will kill me haha.. den walk to jieral.. den lynette broke her bag.. haha.. it was funny den jieral tried to stuff her bag in his big bag .. den i had hard time walkng bec my leg was painful.. den had cell .. it was funny .. den went home hehe.. shermen they all abandon me .. but i have my Qing Qing to tok to me on phone .. she entertain me .. haha.. it was nice of her.. den had hard time walking home.. den told my mum den she help me rub my ankle feel so bless.. i have a nice MUM .. hehe so lve her .. haha.. i wrote on my msn nick abt it.. everybody was so nice and concerned abt it.. they all encouraged me and allison even offer to come my house and fetch me to schl toml .. haha .. she is such a nice frenz .. so lve her too hehe... den all my frenz told me to see the chinese doctor.. but i v scared .. i dun wan... chinese doctor is like a monster to me.. u nv know wat will happen nxt and where will u be.... they are so scary .. haha.. toml will be a hard day for me.. i think everybody will give me strange looks...in the way i walk.. haiz... wish yj ppl will be nice ba .. haha ... |
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Saturday, September 8, 2007 @ 8:49 AM haha.. so many days nv blog le...tis few days i stayed in wan qing house .. haha.. it was fun...we studyed together and i think it was nt too bad although sometimes i may feel tat it is nt productive.. haha remember i stayed in her house on the first night.. haha.. it seems like i am singapore and i am surrounded wif water .. haha.. tat was excatly wat happen on the first night .. haha.. the air-condition was nt at gd condition so water kept leaking until when i was all surrounded wif water... initially i thought it was me... bec i was all wet... but when i saw the water around me... i gt so shocked... den i thought do i have the ability to produce so much water... haha.. nt me but my body haha.. den i woke wan qing up.. den she opened her eyes so big and look at me .. gosh tis is so scary .. haha.. den she told me it was the air-con den i felt a peace in my heart .. haha .. luckily nt me .. all else it will be so embarrassed... hehe.. tat night was a cold nite hehe... haha... den wan qing jus slept ;like a pig .. haha den we studied all day... i feel tat i know her for so long.... we have endless things to say.. haha.. we can tok abt the moon, the sky, the star .. haiz.. jus everything we can all tok abt.. i am so happy to have her as my frenz.. although we i just know for less than a year.. but she seem so close to me like i know her for so many generation .. haha.. so love her.. she is like a pilliar to me.. when i am down i can tell her .. when i am happy she can share my joy.. there is no barrier between us.... tis is wat i like ...i felt tat i am so lucky to have her... even our mothers came frm the same part of the city in malaysia... frm within thousands of ppl we met and became gd frenz.. tis is nt jus by luck.. it was all density... i will treasure tat is given by him... god have sent me so many ppl in my life to help me throgh crisis tat i sometimes think i do nt deserve it but god love me so much tat .. he gave me many pillars to lean on when i am in need .. i am really v happy.. and he made me in the way.. tat i will be always happy.. thanks for everything u have done for me GOD ... and for the past few days wan qing kept scolding me lu ci .. haha.. it was so funny .. actually i am realli one i jus cant recoginise the road .. haha.. den me and wan qing did many things .. haha.. i just saw the other side of wan qing tat i did nt see b4 haha... she was so funny.... den we even say tat in future if we have bf .. we will make sure tat they will be gd frenz.. haha.. it is to tis extent .. tis is so fun .. haha....
she damn clusmy la she dropped the lao po bin i buy for her... she pig lol....den she still can laugh.. sometimes i wondered if she is really ok.. den went to church today... haha.. den was on usher duty today.. it was quite fun.. i had a great time.. the sermen tat was preached todae was quite impactful.. i think tis sermen is for me.. there are times whereby i lack the hunger in me and tat is why i lose the motivation in me tat is why i sometimes stopped chasing on god words.. i wan back the first love i have in me... sometimes i doubt the purpose of me coming to church .. is it bec of the ppl i tat is y i stayed ... i really wish tat 1 day i would stay in the church because of the him.. GOd .. i wanna to stay bec of him.. i wan to stay in his pressence in his church... i wan to get to know abt him.. i wan others to be saved .. i wan to do many many things for him.. i wanna the faith in me to be restored.. and i wan to reach to a whole new level.. i wan to continue to grow in god.. there is so many wans i have... and i know wif him tis wan will all be fufiled... he will give me the strength and guide me through ....i know tat althought i am nt faithful to him sometimes but he still continue to help me in ways tat i cannot see... i know he is THE TRUTH, THE LIFE AND THE WAY.. i wan to give my nicest days to him and glories him... i wish the I in me will die but it is HIM who live inside me.... |
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Tuesday, September 4, 2007 @ 6:11 PM went to schl for pw haiz... we spent most of the time playing den Qing went to brought sub-way haha.. she look like a delivery gal.. haha.. den miss tan went through our pw .. it turn to be a A piece .. hehe... den went wan qing house and study hehe.. den it was quite productive before dinner .. den during dinner we went shop and save and brought so many fruits haha... as if like we are holding a fruit festival haha... we had fun in shop and save.. haha I LVE WAN QING... den we went back and continue study.. den we started toking abt everything in the world haha.. i think at times i really need to control myself .. i shld nt let the devil in me run...there are times it may be hurting to u i am sorry... it was nt meant to be like tat .. i juz cannt control...the 1 in me... i am sorry if i have hurt u .. when tried putting myself in u ...the feeling is juz nt right ... i know i have done wrong and i will try to let the 1 in me run anymore ... i am SORRY ... i will nt hold u anymore.. i know clearly tat tis is the time to let go and let u fly freely into the sky and no matter how hurt i would feel ... i would still let u go... i wan u to be like the eagle tat would saw everywhere freely ....and always be happy and i would be happy... |