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Thursday, March 27, 2008 @ 12:50 AM 最后一次 在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前 我想对你说我爱你 在你怀里 舍不得放弃 心里有千万语还没说给你听 我使劲全力 不想闭上眼睛 这次告别就不能再相遇 不能再陪你 但不要忘记 你曾经答应我你会好好活下去 先走了 去了好远的地方 不能再陪你看日出 等不到天亮 所有回忆没去 却并不容易 生死由天决定 不要太伤心 在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前 我想对你说我爱你 在你怀里 舍不得放弃 心里有千万语还没说给你听 我使劲全力 不想闭上眼睛 这次告别就不能再相遇 不能再陪你 但不要忘记 你曾经答应我你会好好活下去我永远爱你 |
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Wednesday, March 26, 2008 @ 10:58 AM went to shwan hse to eat... den went out wif qing in the afternoon ... i have learn a lot wif her ... i am so glad to have her as my frenz... i am glad tat i did nt gave her up and took the last step ... i can jux be myself in front of her no worries at all... she allow me to see wat in the past i did nt use to see ... i always thought tat i needed a lot of frenz i needed to be popular to feel love... but after knowing her i know tat is nt true... so wat if u know the whole world ppl but hw many will really care for u ... nw i jux feel tat i jux need a few a few tat will really care for me tat is ENOUGH tis is all i need .... half of my life seraching for wat i dun need jux make me feel like an idoit but i am really glad tat i have found an ans at last ... after toking to qing today i jux feel gradually quite sad... thinking tat i am always the most unfortunate person in thw world make me feel v stupid to have tis thinking nw ... in tis world actually there are even more ppl who are even more unfortuante den me .. i am toatlly nt fit to say this words... TOTALLY NT FIT AT ALL.. sometimes hw i wish i have the power to make them happy ... there are so many thinngs i wan to say but i dun know hw to put ion words haiz... jux so pei fu qing,... she is suh a nice gal... she can sacrifice everything for a frenz ... i think if it is me i dun think i can do it lo... i am jux so gald u are my frenz:) |
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Wednesday, March 19, 2008 @ 10:14 AM haiz... yesterday was a realli bad day for me at first... felt so unhappy nv thought tat u will do tis to me... u shld have at least ask me.. at least i will nt be v upset abt it.. do u know hw would it feel if i heard the news frm other ppl ??? when ppl thinking tat i will be gg along and giving the "STOP BLUFFING" face saying tat it is so impossibe tat i am nt invited... i have nv allow ppl to feel leave out but y ppl are doing tis to me nw... do u all so dislike me until like tat... but the only thing i am glad is tat u were honest me when i ask u... felt so left out... is tis really wat will happen to us eventually... APART kept passing through my brian.. i know tat by my character eventually we will be... but cant u see i am doing everything to save it.. and nt wanting it to end... but i think u dun see it bec of ur other frenz... i know clearly tat they are obvious more impt den me bec u have known them much earlier den me.... so i had nth to say.... but i really wish tat the ending would be a nice wan... does it mean tat loving someone means tat they dun need frenz anymore??? i wanting to get rid of tis mentality saying tat "i am pretty so u are expected to like me"and when u dont the feeling of anguish comes out cursing y he does nt like me but like a so ugly gal instead .... is thinking have upset me for long ... i hate tis thinking ... tis is feeling makes me feel worse everyday... when they pass through my mind... but i am glad when i went to meet vincent and kelvin it is seriously long when i last saw them.. they really change a lot... had a happy time together esp when we went ming zhui hse to play mahjong .. wow so impressed tat they could continuously play till dawn ... and the most the most impresive one is tat vincent could tok frm the moment he came in to the hse till he left the hse and totally dun feel thirsty... i am really glad to have this entertainment .. although at times it may be irratating but we really enjoy his nonsense causing us to have continuous laughter i am so glad to have him as my frenz... haha :) wan qing hope everything will be fine for u :) cheer up no matter wat happen we will support u :) if there is anything i can help please tell me although i am a v chatty person but i ahve a pair of good listening ear .. so always give me a call when u wan to borrow k:) lve u :) |
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Monday, March 3, 2008 @ 9:11 AM todae... went out wif my sweensens frenz.. haha ... quite a fun day... spent on bomb luckily tis is once in a few times nt everytime... we spent abt 300 dollars todae... wow so impressive we went to had lunch together , den went to play pool den we went for three hrs cycling haha ... so fun den went swenseens to have our dinner... we spent like 180 dollars jux eating haha .... den went to k box and had a fun time there.... haha so love all of them... i am so blessed to have all of them as my frenz.... hiaz... went seating the bus home today .. i think a lot... i felt that i am lost again... have no goals in life... feeling so unloved feeling so out of place most of the time... i think i have changed to be a so unhappy person and nw i dun even know hw does it feel like to smile from my heart.. i hate tis change in me... really hate it... sometimes i jux feel like i dun belong there ... i feel tat i dun even know a single person .. and have emo one side and nobody even give a damn abt it... having no one to love and jx having to see ppl falling in love and even having to become a matchmaker to them... i am feeling so terrible ... there is nth tat i can look forward to nw ... really pratically NOTHING wat am i gonna to do... feel like breaking down ... who is gonna to save me from all tis who???? and will anyone give a damn... i doubt so ba.... |