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Thursday, February 28, 2008 @ 7:21 AM hiaz... maybe i am really v selfish ... i am really so sorry ... maybe u really need a frenz ... and maybe tat frenz is her ... maybe i should nt be angry wif anyone... it is nt anybody fault.... wanting a frenz is nt anybody fault .. i think maybe i am juz over sensitive ba... Sorry if i have hurt anybody ... i will nv look back anymore.. future is my hope... nt regrets i promise i will try to accept him...:) haha so look forward to the monday outing haha ... it is gonna be v great.... haha it will be sure a fun day :) haha :) wan qing lets find a day to go swimming kk :) |
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Monday, February 25, 2008 @ 8:13 AM stop telling me tat u did nt change the fact is u did ... i really dislike the wat u are nw... |
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Friday, February 22, 2008 @ 11:04 AM wow so happy todae... haha went out wif my frenz.. den brought so many things gosh i spent like 60 plus just for tat afternoon wow jux so impress wif myself.. haha but did nt really regret buying all these things haha later went to find Qing they all ... haha den spent another like 30 plus ... haha.. but we had a fun time togather den went to play pool .. haha at last i play pool all thanks to qing and shu fen haha so love them ... thanks for teaching me haha:) |
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Monday, February 18, 2008 @ 9:33 AM i need a little more luck than a little CUz everyime i get stuck the word wont fit And everytime that i try i get tongue tied i need a little good luck to get me by i need a little more help than a bit like the perfect one word that no one has heard yet cuz every time i try i get tongue tongue i need a little good luck to get me by this time |
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Sunday, February 17, 2008 @ 9:56 AM haha today so happy went to chg my blogskin and friendster layout ... den went to work ... haha had a nice time playing with the ppl haha:) really love my frenz there ... they are always so nice ... they were nv self centre no matter hw tired or busy they are.. they would always give a helping hand when u are always in need even when u are nt they will still help u ... never mind of the extra work they do... and always withstanding my nonsense ... and always giving in to me nv allowing me to nt have any sadness in me... i am really so happy to have this bunch of frenz... no matter how tired i would be trying to balance the both work but i will nv say i will quit ... i really really love this job a lot... although it is v tiring but... with all the frenz there tat would always motivate me ... i love working with everyone of them.. they are juz like my angel always bring me endless joy... i would nv forget this period i work there .. although there are still sad memories there but the happy moments will be always the one i remember .... sometimes i always think tat no matter hw high postion u are .. u are still a human ... y shld we always put a fake front in front of them when they come are they really v scary tat u have to put a fake front cant imagine hw do u lead a life like tat.. hate tis kind of ppl .. loving u when they have nth left... acting as if they are nice in front of u but u will nv know wat they would do behind u... y muz ppl make themselves so tired by doing all these or is it .. they are too use to it tat they will nt feel tired anymore... feaering to have tis kind of frenz but it can nv be advioded... |
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Friday, February 15, 2008 @ 10:20 AM SORRY !!!! i think there is some misunderstanding in this post .. yup some of the words are meant for u but some are nt... but watever the case this post is also somehow related to our situation ba... it is true tat i am angry and v disappointed wif u ... and i am telling u i am nt uninterested in ur words but maybe is ba of tiredness making it let u feel tis way.. and i nv thought u were this kind of person .. although i admit tat when i was angry tis thought actually past my mind but after tat it faded ... i am glad tat u actually gave it a thought and after i read ur blog i am touched by ur words i really wish this is all true... i am sorry for my one moment selfish towards u .. o maybe it is juz an excuse maybe i am really selfish ... nv thought tat one day other ppl words would weigh higher den mine ba and the person is somebody tat u know a fews day only making me more angry.. maybe is juz me ... i juz feel tat if when u gave it a ask if i wanted to join at least i would nt feel totally left out and think tat u wanted everything to urself i am sorry for this thought i have ba.. maybe is juz we are different ba.. and we do things differently ba.. bec if it was me i would ask u if u wanted to join but maybe tis is nt the way hw u do it..so it is nt totally ur fault .... but watever the case eventually it is u tat will be wif him if he is ur Mr Right nT me so i have no say in watever decision u make but as a frenz i really wish tat there would nt be any regrets for any decsion u make ... and i really wish tat tis time u will nt let any chance slip by and nt leave any regrets in ur life... but i really wish tat if u really like him den i wish tat u will be honest to me i really really dun wish history will repeat itself i really hate it to repeat... AND I REALLY HATE MYSELF FOR HAVING TIS KIND OF CHARACTER.. GOD is always fair... watever u good in something there will be something u will be bad in.. nobody is perfect... i may be able to make a lot of frenz and ppl may admired my ability but do they see wat i lost ..frenz tat are really true and tat can last forever if i can choose i really dun wan tis ability ... i wan to have the eaily satisfied feeling at least i will be happy and nv feel lonely and no bother to tok to ... and feel totally lost... Do u know tat at one point in time when i know u i was really jealous by ur beauty ... i am so jealous y i did nt have tat i really wish to hate u but i cannot bring myself to do so ... bec we have tis so strong bond in btwn of us tat cannot bring myself to hate u .... and when tell me tat actually u do nt have a lot of frenz tat i was so shocked tat bring myself even more nt to hate u ...nt bec i pity u is bec after knowing u .. i have found out lots of things ... things tat u did to kali and Jane tat make me v touched ...u can do so much for them and nv wish the returns ... and choosing to belief even if she really did lie to u ...and u are willing to share things tat others dun have ...u juz let me know tat frenz are the ppl tat will cover ur back and try to help u improve on things tat u once did nt have... i admit tat we have drifted and partly it is bec of me ... maybe bec i have met new frenz causing us to drift but i will do anything and i will try my best to salvage this friendship tat we have ... i really dun wan to lose u as a frenz although it is juz a one year but it feels like we knew each other for years... we have went through so much and i really hope it will nt end here ... really hope tat we nxt time we will honest to each other if there are these things tat u are really v unhappy wif me i really hope tat u will say it out... i dun wan u to hide everything in ur heart ... and act calm and pretend nth happen... i really dun like tis feeling... lets be ppl who can take criticism.. and willing to accept wat is being say and change for the better and i will believe tat FOREVER is nt only can be found inside ur storybk but it can be found in our friendship... and i really hope no obstacles will stop us frm being frenz... pull me back if u think i have drifted... i am sorry if these happens... we will ppl who is willing to share and help each other improve k:) we will return back to the past :) WE WILL !!!!! i love the way it feel when u touch my hand dont wan to let u go i love the way u say that i am ur man dont understand y we cant go on and go on dont understand why you dont belong in my arms And even if i cried a thousnads tears tonight would u come back to me and even if i walked on the water would u come out of the sea now i cant spend my life standing by cause even if i miss u you are still nt missing me It is funny how my heart just wont let it go i juz dun understand it is crazy how the pain seemd overflow the memories of you here wif me by my side i cant deny tat u are the love of my life |
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Thursday, February 14, 2008 @ 9:29 AM EMPTy i really hate the way u are nw... u are really gg to get on my nerves soon U KNOW!!!!!!! if u dun know hw to balance ur life den dun be greedy to get everything ... if u lack of confidence den u better find back ur confidence dun think tat by keeping it all to urself den the thing will always be there forever .. i am telling u nw IS NT TRUE and if tis is ur choice den i am telling u U BETTER DUN REGET y did u turn like tat ... does all this really will change u do u really really lack of love until like tat ... is one word more impt den mine .. if this is the case den i dun see the reason y we shld maintain this relationship ... it is nt i am nt understanding but watever i see is nt wat u say .. tat makes me really angry... but i hope u will never regret.. u having tis thinking tat u all always be like tat .. i am telling plz be more realistic it will nv be true.. but if u choose to believe i have nth to say... wanting to keeping it everything to urself i am telling u u will eventually lose everything .. and when tat day come.. u better dun run to me to tell me the only thing i am gg to tell u is too bad... go and find wat u thought u have ... bec tat is ur decsion.. i really really hate tis kind of person... nv thought tis will happen to us.. fearing tis day will come but it came so fast tat i am unable to think and react.. didnt know we drift so apart already until there is no turning back... i really really dun wan to lose u but if this is fate den i have really nth to say... |