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Friday, December 28, 2007 @ 9:12 PM feeling so terrible... unsure y i would have tis feeling nv thought tat i would have tis reaction ... maybe it is juz tat i am nt prepared thinking tat it was wat i thought but it did not happen... the reply gave me a shock.. and my heart felt empty REALLY EMPTY... INSECURITY feels my heart ... y would all tis happen feel like crying but i juz could nt.. but tears kept rolling down ... having to bless them when i could nt no matter hw hard i try ... always being a idoit in front of ppl all these while thinking tat u are mine telling the ppl u like saying tat there is a possiblity BUT it is all a joke WAT A BIG JOKE hw i wish i did nt ask abt it and nt knowing anything maybe i would have felt better ... dun wish to meet anybody nw I THINK TIS IS THE BEST BIRTHDAY GIFT U HAVE GIVEN TO ME . REALLY THE BEST |
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Thursday, December 20, 2007 @ 9:51 PM falling in love is nobody fault breaking up is nobody to be blame times passes so fast it is gg to be a new yr again .. looking back at tis yr ... it is juz all a waste .. WASTE.. chossing the wrong road .. messing up my life and unsure of wat i wan nw i am really lost LOST COMPELETY who is going to help me... i really dun know ... sometimes really feel so sick of life .. wat is the real meaning of life?? having nv ending boyfriend?? having good results tat everybody admired to have?? having thousnds of frenz? having lots of money tat will nv end?? having good family?? having goal in life tat will nv cause you to lose ur way?? wat is the real meaning of life?? who is able to ans me no matter hw much u have in life you will eventually lose it den wat for do we live when at last we are gg to lose all of it .. i really dun kn0w.. FEELIING SO EMPTY AND LOST WHO IS GG TO SAVE ME FROM ALL TIS??? |
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Wednesday, December 5, 2007 @ 10:36 AM I AM BACK AT LAST haha... so long since i have blog:) wow my whole december is packed with many many so many exciting events... so love it it seems like i am living a v fruitful life love tis feeling although it is tiring rushing here and there to get all stuff done by the deadline... tis is all so fun.. i have learn a lot and to work much better under stress love all my church leaders:) thanks for allowing me to have the chance to do more for the church and i will do wif all my best and nt disappoint you all.. u all sit back and see i will rise up one day to take ur place haha:) but even den i will still love all of u all... hehe :) and now i feel so comfortable and happy in my connect group ad i love each and everyone of them . they are juz so great ppl and i learn a lot from them :) and i thank you for the leaders i have .. they are juz so great so love them:)...nv felt living my life so fruiful before... now i am getting use to rely on God more and wif Him things have been falling in place ..:)He is such a great God who always keeps His promise... now i feel so Faith feel... it seems tat i have no trouble bec He have work things in my heart allowing me to be a happier and much better person... things like which path to take nxt yr.. although He did nt tell me personally where to go but this words stay in my heart all along"He will direct ur path we juz to have to do it wif all ur faith and if it is the wrong path He will pull you back in time".. this words seem so rooted into my heart.. it seem to be telling me tat i juz have to trust in Him and do things wif more Faith and if it is wrong He will pull me back :) so glad to have Him in me:) nw i have gt to catch up wif all my fren... even though wif all my tight scheldue i believe tat if u have the desire .. you will surely to be able to do it... yup like todae i went to meet Wanqing which i have nt meet her for mths haha:) so love her.. she juz so0 nice hehe :).. so happy tat she have change for the better :) got to catch up wif all my other frenz man haha and i have got a new book todae and i am so excited to read it hehe:)yeah man i wish the hse visit plan will work out well and it will be good :) and wish tat the integrations will come back :) todae a sermon was preached and it was abt being organised in order to learn and grow and i am so glad tat todae i have done a timetable for myself and i have a plan my week coming ahead and i feel so happy tat i am living so fruitful and nt without a vision anymore but nw living wif a big vision :) i am nt lost anymore .. the feeling of organised is so great and feeling nt lost is juz so great tat no words can explain it... |